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Almost 1 month nvr post anythings ardy, sorry. What happen in tis 1 month?

-Ham-

You slowly get away from my mind ardy, mayb i can say tat, you stay 10% in my mind ardy, but i believe tat i will totally forgot you, n i will b myself 'playful' again. Think back...you changed me alot lot lot, n i couldn't count. For example: the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i'm happy, the way i'm angry, the way i study, the way i was playful, the way i was childish, the way i 7 xin..n more. You change me to bcum totally different like i bcum yr Barbie, when you want my love i giv you, when you wan me i giv you my time, when you wan me to bcum totally girl type i force myself to b. But when i needs you, you r always not there for me. Be in front of you i'm vry tired to change to another person, if you don like the way i usually do, den deep inside you heart. Whats makes you love me? don tell me coz you know i will b yr Barbie? =.='

>When i was sad, wanted you to support, you r not there for me.

>When i was happy, wanted to share to you, you r not there for me.

>When i was bored, wanted you to company, you r not there for me.

>When i was hurt, wanted you to care abt it, you r not there for me.

>When i was sick, wanted you to ngam or at least send 1 msg to tell me wat i should do, you r not there for me.

>When i was angry, wanted you to cool me down, you r not there for me.

>When i was lonely, wanted you to b wif me, you r not there for me.

>When i'm under pressure, wanted you to gives some entertainment, you r not there for me.

>When i miss you, wanted to see you, you r not there for me.

If you choose tis way to treat me as yr gf or the 1 you still love like tis, i need you to tell you 'i'm sorry, i stand it for 1 year ardy, i'm tired'

-Fei Zhu Zaii-

We meet the 1st time is on my bday[3rd Sept]. Tat time we don really know each other but we still can talk n chat. Jia wen love tis guy, n we can meet is bcoz of Jia wen, she wanted to see him closely n to know him more.

>1st time: Tis 'meet' was Jia wen's idea. We were still like normal frens, can talk can sot can laugh, n jia wen likes him even more from tis '1st meet'. ~at mcd~ *3rd sept

>2nd time: Tis time is [fei zhu zaii] asked me wanna go out to eat ice cream, den i ask Jia Wen do she wan? she quickly agree tat she is free whr actually she got class. Its prove tat, Jia Wen really likes him. ~at papa's rich~ *6th sept

>3rd time: Tis time was at nite, [fei zhu zaii] wanted to hav dinner den i called Jia Wen too. at 1st she can but bcoz her mum suddenly disagree go i juz go wif [fei zhu zaii] to hav dinner together. We were quite fun, but coz limited time so we juz chat a little bit abt our frens. ~at pizza hut~ *11th sept

>4th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out to hav lunch together n we eat n walk at 'our old place' xD we were quite fun,we were like soh lou n soh po xD but in tis outing i feel sum funny funny feeling. den i ask him 'you like me ar?' den he ans 'no ar' den i said 'mayb i feel wrong jor bah'. den i juz 4get abt it. but nite time sumthing happen...... ~at dpc~ *15th sept

>5th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out again to study(: he helps me on my hmwk n on my math, we were like normal studying. n he kept saying tat 'i hate you' den i write on his hand 'you hate me?'. the whole day he say kept saying 'i hate you', hahax! lol. tis outing i also hav limited time again only so we don really study or ply much. ~at mcd~ *17th sept

>6th time: Tis time we were in the morning, my mum ask me to go for jogging, to let the toxic out from my body, at the same time [fei zhu zaii] call me out to jog too, so i decide to go wif him. Early in the morning almost 8am we reached there [our old place] den we start to jog while plying n chatting. We were also quite fun, n there got leng lui leng zai tim. But b4 we when of he 'bei' me tat time all those ppl were looking at us n those leng zaii too. Therefore i nvr kap zai lo, n cannot kap zaii ardy xD *kap too much also no gud de* aft the jog we when for breakfast at aman puri, juz chatting. Aft tat he fetch me bak. B4 i cum down from he car, i told him sumthings, den we hav a great bigg hug(: ~at dpc n papa's rich~ *18th sept

I dono how to describe wat i feel, i only know tat, Jia wen likes him n he likes ... Jia wen is my fren, mayb is still not the rite time yet.

-My life-

my life now? Full of stress..but lucky still got sum 'fun' time xD Hope tat wat i study helps in my exam=3=

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