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Thursday, March 17, 2011

saw zhu zaii's blog.♥

i just wanna post a simple bloggie. i had change from the day i know zhu zaii.
I'm ardy not that
(1) crazy
(2) funny
(3) sweet
(4) caring
(5) loving
(6) good
(7) who always kept positive

Yea, i do, i really had changed. Just now i just see his blog *http://hao-aka-zz.blogspot.com/* n c all the old post. We were very sweet...everyday got different thing / surprise, we enjoy 'zhat'-ing each other, enjoy 'webcam'-ing, enjoy the way we treat each other. But slowly things change, no wonder alot of couple cannot stand for 3 months. But xiiao zhu n zhu zaii did, we can continue for more than 4 months ardy. Slowly we don really appreciate what we really say to each other, we don be as sweet as last time, we get bored in our conversation, we don really need each other. Isit a vry big different? can we continue? can we overcome it? isit normal?

I really wanna thank you the 'god' who plan this for me. I know zhu zaii when it was my 15th bday (9th sept 2010) , although i don get much present, but a 'god' had give me a BIGGGG present, that is............. a guy named ZHI HAO that makes my life different, who change my life from thinking back the 'BAD' things that happen. This is what i always say to myself. Rmb 'dai gau shui' ? the cherry thing? Hehe. [if you don understand can c back my old old post]

Our every first time:
(1)   the day that we hav dinner together (pizza hut)
(2)   the day we go from jogging together & the time that i felt you r different (dpc & in car)
(3)   the day that we had cam together
(4)   that day we go crazy (dpc)
(5)   that day you helped me in my studies (mcd)
(6)   that day you came to my hse when i said i miss you (outside of my hse 12 midnite)
(7)   that day you teaches me how to take bus from bsd to 1u (bus stop)
(8)   that day you pick me home from work (ou)
(9)   that day your 1st time fetch me from your new car (car LATIO)
(10) that day you purposely go up to genting although you cant (genting)
(11) that day you 'gao bai' wif me in freeze (genting)
(12) that day you 1st time cook for me (fetching me back from work)
(13) that day i call you at 3am n i was late (your bday)
(14) that day you sacrifice that 1 week together wif jia wen (bec of me)
(15) that day i told you that i miss you until i cant slp (5th oct 2010)
(16) that day we 1st time saying hamsap things (in phone)
(17) that day we talked in phone in 4 hrs 10 min the longest phone call (8th oct 2010)
(18) that month almost every night don let me go to slp want me to talk wif you until we feel vry vry tired (oct 2010)
(19) that day you 1st time cried for me (11th oct)
(20) that day you 1st time fetch me to tuition n the 1st kiss n my cheek (12th oct)
(21) that day we took train from kepong sentral to times square (WINDOW SHOPPING)
(22) that day we 1st time watch movie together (17th oct 2010)
(23) that day we had your 1st kiss when you fetch me back from work (31th oct)
(24) the time i felt myself was your bf n you're my gf (almost everytime)
(25) the 1st bigggg surprise i give you n i put it in your car (after fetching me from work 11th nov)
(26) that day my sick day you give me a warm feeling (in your hse)
(27) that day you gave me a valentine gift (valentine day)
(28) that day you played piano for me a song name KISS THE RAIN (in your room)
(29) that day once we meet each other i will take your phone to set a reminder or note or appointment or a alarm to tell you that i miss you. (almost everytime i c dou *last time*)
(30) i gave you a surprise in your phone (hide it at your battery)
(31) gave you a goodbye kiss when ever you fetch me (in car)
(32) that day we go walk walk n dance in front of me until the sky bcum dark (dcp)
(33) that day saw your mum n dad while we're eating n ask them to join us (dcp)
(34) sing song to me *quite loud, alot ppl look at us* (in train)
(35) that day b4 i go off to taiwan i post a blog to tell you wat you need to look at yourself (18th dec)
(36) that 3 month we celebrate our anniversary together (9th dec, jan, feb)
(37) that day we 1st time hug each other but got 2 thing so ngam 1 was the uncle looking at us while we were hugging n 2 was so ngam it was a love song came out from the radio
(38) that day you pui me go play bball (saga court)
(39) that day i test you c you really appreciate the other things when you're together wif me. how many times we came out together? 8times *that time*  (in skype)
(40) the day i cooked for you (in my hse)
(41) the day you came to my hse to hav lunch n my parents r in home (cny)

haha, too much too much liao.. but if without him, my story will me all in sadness only. *take a deep breath* He's the 1 i love, before, now n after. Today...i just drop few tears bcoz of him. but slowly it recover that pain n my heart ardy. Yea, i know, i'm a stupid girl. i know at least a stupid girl still got a person wants. Wow, this blog i has type for 3 hours ardy, broke record ardy. Alot of his memories in my mind flows like showing in a cinema, we hav laugh together, cry together, crazy together, paiseh together, n love each other.





















My life will get bored,
without him♥
He's the different 1 ♥

Do i love him?
Yes, i do, i really do♥

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

tada!! back to my bloggie :DD

today also lazy to type just post few pica la.

Today i went to mid valley.

n brought ticket from GSC.

n the movie was..
this is my tickets...


it was really nice :DD

n 1 more. b4 i go off my hse to mid valley, i toke a pica of myself :]


THE END..

Sunday, March 13, 2011

My short boy hair

Okeys, in today's bloggie nth much. just post an pica of my short boy hair la. it was really short. LOL.




Thursday, March 10, 2011

a very painful day..

today i went to cut my hair..it was tomboy's style.. but at 1st i tot it suits me. but now nope. it was really short n it cuts until my curl came out. Now..i wan kinda regret of to be so playful. from i just same out from the saloon i don really dare to watch myself from the mirror. Last time i'm also like that b4, it was 4 years ago.... i don dare to really look myself from the mirror, bcoz i scare wat i c is not wat i think. and i tot i had overcome this problem..but...nope.it came to me again.. last time no matter how isit at least i still hav alittle bit more confident but now? totally gone.......i had lost my confident....is just like i had lost everything. but at least i still hav a fren, i name him dai lou..yea..in tuition i just act that i'm vry confident but he look through me n tell me i looks fine. looks ok wat, won be that bad la, slowly you will get use to it..dono y i really wanna tell him thank you :]

wow...just a hair cut or a hair style my life totally changed. i told him ardy. i tot he will giv me some confident coz now.....i really needs him. i don dare to tell him, bcoz now once i look at the mirror i felt that he won likes it, n something some starts to happen, n in my outlook now..it doesn't even match wif him...dono y..i will hav this thinking everytime when i look myself in front of the mirror.and he nvr just kept telling me not to cry n don think so much. yea..i had tried too..but the point is... i know that you also cares abt my outlook. last time my hair damages n ardy lost some confident of being in front of you. but now? worse..i know that i miss you alot n i needs you, but i don dare to let you look at me. my heart now really feel sour n pain..really really pain.. if i'm single in this outlook no body wants me nvm..but now...no...i don feel like losing another thing from my daily life. but i don wan him to felt pity abt me so outside say can accept but deep in the heart nope. if he just pity me only continue wif me then i rather not to continue. haiz..... YING QIU HAS LOST HER CONFIDENT ARDY. n she cant find it......she vry 'cha' lo, just know how to cry.. she knows that nobody will help her ardy but she just wanna act like a kid cry on the floor waiting for mummy to help..YING QIU vry 'cha' leh!!

i misss him now..i really wan him to appear in front of me..i really needs him now...but...bcoz of my confident..i don hav anything ardy.


























'CONFIDENT' whr r you?
i get lost in myself ardy.
no1 will helps me,
n i'm so stupid,
crying over there..
now...
i really needs a ...

great warm hugg..

but..
i know i won get it.

no matter how isit,
i just know that..

I.L.H.
-Kiss the rain & River Flows in you-
*listening at it*