2nd post on the same day xD

lol, suddenly feel like posting sumthings. today n yesterday i was late to school, yesterday the perhimpuan also end ardy den i only reach to schoool, today is kinda late abit but still ok la xD
At school nth really happen, juz like normal... only on class bm-pn. azlina kept saying abt Jing Hui's bad word. Say that he likes to meronda wif his gf-wen yun. tat time he damn bek chek lo xD
in school juz like in a pressure cooking. teacher kept on giving paper to do, n we juz kept doing non stop. walau, totally tired man.. after PMR i'm not gonna touch all those books ardy, they will be totally out from my mind, and i will just play n play n play for the whole day nia xD

yesterday nite in phone wif zhu zaii, saying abt my 'saved msg' n he past were i saw in his blog. N talking abt our 1st kiss nia xD n we were talking abt 'is zhu zaii a play boy?' i feel really sorry, bcoz i tell him i don trusted him, n kept thinking tat he's a play boy. N he was damn hurt n almost T.T, i dono how to change my mind set to act him is juz a guy tat will love you deep inside his heart, i'm now trying ardy, hope you r not really a play boy. we talk from almost 12 til 2:30am nia, my ear gonna deaf ardy, i kept delay the time tat he limited dono y xD
Mayb i 'mm seh dak' gua, i'm not sure xD *tao bi-ing*

Today saw zhu zaii's blog again, he kept saying he miss me, but i kept laughing, coz he is like nvr c me 1 min ardy vry miss,hahax! i kept laughing nia, we juz meet 2 days ago, cant imagine how he miss til so deeply xD
Now in my conversation wif others don hav ham de things ardy, zhu zaii is the 1 slowly take over. Sumtimes talking wif my mum, den i say abt him, sumtimes talking wif my fren talking abt him, dono y again xD
Dono i really fall in love wif him jor isit, i juz don dare to face it. He tried to makes me face it, but i juz kept 'tao bi'. Dono y AGAIN..@.@

My hmwk is really damn lot nia, lucky sumtimes zhu zaii can help me in tat xD if not i will b like a dead person ardy. 2day kit yew sms me again, n he kept calling kay sieng to ask my personal things, but i try to tell kay sieng not to tell him abt zhu zaii, coz i don wan him to b vry disappointed, n coz he likes me for almost 1year++ ardy. Yes i noe him longer den zhu zaii, but feel all tis is juz like test you how you can really catch a gul heart anot de ma, mayb he ben dan catch mm dou my heart gua xD but tat zhu zaii also not really touch dou deep inside la, now is touch dou but is juz 3 layer in,hahax!

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dono wat i wan>

yesterday i 2:30am only slp,aw..kinda tired-.-! coz talk in phone wif zhu zaii xD

2day jia wen ask me ' qiu, you ask zhi hao 22th n 23th oct wan go genting mou, coz i wan c him ' den i was like stun awhile den say 'okok, i ask him ardy den i tell you ^^' den when i go off suddenly feel like tat i'm like 'kacau' 1s. vry luan nia, i dono wat time wan, i juz always noe how to tao bi. haiz.....don feel like think abt tat, makes me feel vry luan nia. don feel like post anything, ltr got somethings else only i post again la(:

ON BAK! XD

1,2,3,4,5,6,7..tis is time 7th time i cum out wif zhu zaii. having date?? *vomiting* we havnot couple yet la=.=' i kept reminding myself, i'm still not his gf, don b too over do..reminding..reminding..reminding..kept reminding myself.

7th time-tis time i asked him out, bcoz the day b4 he saw in a bad mood, but tat time i cant cum out so i ask him for tomorrow. tis time we hav our dinner together by eat steamboat at 'our old place'. i ask him to fetch me at 5:30pm but he was LATE! i wanted to angry him,but when i get into the car seems tat the 1 in bad mood was him n is not me. so i juz act nth n ask him y...? den he answer me in a lie n end up he tell me he was joking nia, n i was like, omg, i should angry you 1st nia.
on the way we were in a jam so we reached there abt 6pm. we walk around the garden n the 'bigg' supermarket too=.= while walking we were juz chatting n laughing. n i rmb 1 is tat when i tell him tat guy ply bball was vry lc den zhu zaii shout at him n say 'OI!' omg, i look at tat guy i quickly act dono nia xD we walk almost the whole park, walau, it was really damn BIGG, until is like walk n walk also don hav end like tis de?? =.= but b4 walk finsh, i ask him to giv me his phone,n i start to record my sound 'wei! answer my phone leh, i'm ying qiu leh. ANSWER MY PHONE!! if you don answer i don call you ardy n you no ned to call me ardy'. i did tis bcoz got 1 time i called him but he nvr answer my phone den i was vry 'gek' so i wanted him to answer my phone when i call him. wkaka xD to tell him tat if you don answer my phone you will die,wkaka xD
i think tat time is 7:15 pm like tis, we hav dinner lur. we were chatting chatting chatting..n eating eating eating..tat time i'm a rush to tuition at in BSD so i ask him to eat it fast xD tat dinner cost abt rm40+ =.=' walau, i think he bo money liao lo, every time also eat like tis sure bankrupt de lo. aft eating he fetch me tuition straight away.
when we reach to my tuition centre, i wanted to cum down from the car suddenly he pull me bak n said 'i wan bao bao' in a acting cute face xD den i was 'aw.....ok la' den we hug quite a long time coz i don wanna let go,dono y xD n when i let go he kissed me at my cheek n said 'me leh??' den i think for awhile den i only giv him a kiss at his cheek too. den juz bak to normal, i juz cum down from the car n tell him 'bye bye'. when i'm in class tat i noe i was late 10minutes ardy, n in class tat 1st 10 minutes i kept stun n unfocus coz kept thinking abt tat zhu zaii. but slowly bak to my mood n try to tell myself to b more concentrate(:
*i mayb he c him again aft 3 weeks, n in tat 3 week is can safe bak his money la, but i think aft tat 3 weeks if cum out again sure use finish also de xD

In school, wanted to on9 coz i bring phone but my school's wi-fi lau beh de la=.= n today tat sieng angry again, aiyo, must b tat jing hui n rick bully her again lo, but everytime she been bully sure call me help her geh xD but i always only say 'Jing Hui/Rick ar, don bully her la, sit bak to yr place la' xD n today rick wanted me to help him to ask liyan to go to his bday party at 1st of dec wo, he ply my fren-liyan b4 still wan me to help him ar? choi nei dou soh ar, ply my fren la, 1 leg step 2 boat la, dai sei, you wan ask her go ask yrself, don kept tell me you change ardy, nvr b ply boy ardy. tell me no use de, is c liyan believe anot, if you got heart den you should call her or find her out face to face tell her.

okeys, lazy type ardy, bak to study lo. +u +u, got time post again la:]

nEw LifE

Almost 1 month nvr post anythings ardy, sorry. What happen in tis 1 month?

-Ham-

You slowly get away from my mind ardy, mayb i can say tat, you stay 10% in my mind ardy, but i believe tat i will totally forgot you, n i will b myself 'playful' again. Think back...you changed me alot lot lot, n i couldn't count. For example: the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i'm happy, the way i'm angry, the way i study, the way i was playful, the way i was childish, the way i 7 xin..n more. You change me to bcum totally different like i bcum yr Barbie, when you want my love i giv you, when you wan me i giv you my time, when you wan me to bcum totally girl type i force myself to b. But when i needs you, you r always not there for me. Be in front of you i'm vry tired to change to another person, if you don like the way i usually do, den deep inside you heart. Whats makes you love me? don tell me coz you know i will b yr Barbie? =.='

>When i was sad, wanted you to support, you r not there for me.

>When i was happy, wanted to share to you, you r not there for me.

>When i was bored, wanted you to company, you r not there for me.

>When i was hurt, wanted you to care abt it, you r not there for me.

>When i was sick, wanted you to ngam or at least send 1 msg to tell me wat i should do, you r not there for me.

>When i was angry, wanted you to cool me down, you r not there for me.

>When i was lonely, wanted you to b wif me, you r not there for me.

>When i'm under pressure, wanted you to gives some entertainment, you r not there for me.

>When i miss you, wanted to see you, you r not there for me.

If you choose tis way to treat me as yr gf or the 1 you still love like tis, i need you to tell you 'i'm sorry, i stand it for 1 year ardy, i'm tired'

-Fei Zhu Zaii-

We meet the 1st time is on my bday[3rd Sept]. Tat time we don really know each other but we still can talk n chat. Jia wen love tis guy, n we can meet is bcoz of Jia wen, she wanted to see him closely n to know him more.

>1st time: Tis 'meet' was Jia wen's idea. We were still like normal frens, can talk can sot can laugh, n jia wen likes him even more from tis '1st meet'. ~at mcd~ *3rd sept

>2nd time: Tis time is [fei zhu zaii] asked me wanna go out to eat ice cream, den i ask Jia Wen do she wan? she quickly agree tat she is free whr actually she got class. Its prove tat, Jia Wen really likes him. ~at papa's rich~ *6th sept

>3rd time: Tis time was at nite, [fei zhu zaii] wanted to hav dinner den i called Jia Wen too. at 1st she can but bcoz her mum suddenly disagree go i juz go wif [fei zhu zaii] to hav dinner together. We were quite fun, but coz limited time so we juz chat a little bit abt our frens. ~at pizza hut~ *11th sept

>4th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out to hav lunch together n we eat n walk at 'our old place' xD we were quite fun,we were like soh lou n soh po xD but in tis outing i feel sum funny funny feeling. den i ask him 'you like me ar?' den he ans 'no ar' den i said 'mayb i feel wrong jor bah'. den i juz 4get abt it. but nite time sumthing happen...... ~at dpc~ *15th sept

>5th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out again to study(: he helps me on my hmwk n on my math, we were like normal studying. n he kept saying tat 'i hate you' den i write on his hand 'you hate me?'. the whole day he say kept saying 'i hate you', hahax! lol. tis outing i also hav limited time again only so we don really study or ply much. ~at mcd~ *17th sept

>6th time: Tis time we were in the morning, my mum ask me to go for jogging, to let the toxic out from my body, at the same time [fei zhu zaii] call me out to jog too, so i decide to go wif him. Early in the morning almost 8am we reached there [our old place] den we start to jog while plying n chatting. We were also quite fun, n there got leng lui leng zai tim. But b4 we when of he 'bei' me tat time all those ppl were looking at us n those leng zaii too. Therefore i nvr kap zai lo, n cannot kap zaii ardy xD *kap too much also no gud de* aft the jog we when for breakfast at aman puri, juz chatting. Aft tat he fetch me bak. B4 i cum down from he car, i told him sumthings, den we hav a great bigg hug(: ~at dpc n papa's rich~ *18th sept

I dono how to describe wat i feel, i only know tat, Jia wen likes him n he likes ... Jia wen is my fren, mayb is still not the rite time yet.

-My life-

my life now? Full of stress..but lucky still got sum 'fun' time xD Hope tat wat i study helps in my exam=3=

THE END!

miss you miss you..

8th day you nvr sms or call me ardy. tis few days i'm in blur cos thinking of you nia. lol==

what will you do?

if i tell you i start 2 dui sum1 got feel d, wat will you do? you will take me away from tat guy? or juz c me go? i tot i only dui you got feel but i think i start to let go bec you nvr help yrself. i dono wat will happen. i think the day will cum , and i dono wat will you do.
our relationship is really complicated, all kind of couple stuff we got like : call 'laopo', miss you, love you, kiss you, lie on yr back, n vry care abt the other's stuff tat happen. we only nvr hug, real kiss, in front of ppl said tat we couple. we noe we like each other. but mayb we don amid it only.
but if mayb 1 day he ask for couple, mayb i will ask him 2 wait. coz i ned 2 think is he now wat the thing i wan? but now i won think abt it coz i noe tat day won b cuming. nvm, but now i'm juz focuses ing on my studies :]

bored.

don wan post jor ned study, free only post again la xD

wat is my feelings in [24-25 June]

[24 Jun]
hehex, 24th again..hahax! but tis time also same..still nvr couple bak..n we r impossible d..tat 23th i wanted 2 eat sushi..but..2 sad..his not free..so..'shi wang' again luR..
wa..2day got injection o..vry pain aR..really really pain until whole day i don feel like moving my left hand..

[25 Jun]
2day still pain..but not tat pain like yesterday d..
tis few dayz i'm try vry hard 2 control my mind d..controlling 2 stop thinking abt him d..so i use my geo project 2 over cum it xD

mayb i find him bak is 2 help him 2 4giv bak him only..not 2 think others..n i won think others coz is not possible d..so..my job now is help him 2 4giv hisself n study(: mayb aft he 4giv hisself d..i will find others d..but is u noe him don tell him..coz i noe his 'xing ge'[attitude].. so i ned 2 +u+u luR(:

-[FRENS]-
>Angel: she join our bball competition xD [but yen wen don really like her,dono y]
>Kay Sieng: yesterday she cry until vry pitiful but now i think they r ok d(:
>Rick: he most cham..a gul tat left u d only noe tat she is important but is 2 late d..hope tat u r ok..
>Jing Hui: he aR?? same gua..xD

yesterday his bday..

Yesterday saw his bday,n i dono wan 2 go anot 2 celebrate for him..but end up i still go..n chee hsiang fetch me wif ham n chee hong. when we reach there alvin n kar hoe is there d..so they juz drink n chat at Gasoline,n saw dou ah kai & jun kit..

i wan it!!

haiz..i wan w995...when can i get u..haiz..now i m saving money for u d..>

Moody

2day..think back alot of thingz..thingz abt studies, frens, him, life..

[studies]
i m damn worry abt my studies..coz my result is like a hill, up n down..lol..damn worry..

[frens]
Angel- she aR?? nth 2 worry lo..her relationship is still strong(:
Annie- annie?? since when 2 change skul d, we c each other less d..so i noe not really much abt her d=]
Kay sieng- she aR?? nth 2 say lo..she vry blur de, alwayz dono she luv who de..if u don really noe her u will tot she is ply gul tim xD
Rick- he now couple wif 2 gul at 1 time more nth 2 say..coz he luv 2 gul at the same time..lol..
Jing Hui- he couple back wif Wen Yun so..same la..

[him]
His bday is cuming d..i wanted 2 celebrate wif him..dono he agree anot..damn miss his 17th bday..
he will b back on the 12th of Jun from ns, dono how is his botak looks look like xD

[life]
my life?? nth 2 say..i juz noe tat i rejected alot of ppl..i dono wat my heart think..n i don dare 2 think..coz i don wan 2 regret wat i choose..i noe tat alot of ppl also don agree wat i think..but..no choice who ask him cum in 2 my life..haiz..

tat all for 2day..bye~

my gu po's son weeding dinner pic!! xD

english problem xD

lol..2day i go saga ply bball..tat kien wai kept calling 'qiu ying'>< n he say..y when every1 call me 'qiu ying' he only call me 'ying qiu',but when every1 call me 'ying qiu' only he the 1 call me 'qiu ying' xD den he suddenly call me.."DRAGONFLY"!! hahax!! he tot 'qiu ying' in english is call DRAGONFLY!! english problem xD
so now he call me 'DRAGONWORM'!! xD tis name damn funny la xD wat kinda name is tat xD
n 2day saga also ppl..coz kah lip they all got cum..so..alot more ppl den normal xD

NEW PICA!!

[IN CHANGING ROOM xD]

[same]

[perasan xD]

[my hair is 2 long d><]

[b4 going out xD]

[at my hse toilet xD]

[edited]

[looks abit fat xD]

[peace(:]

[hehex(:]

[smile(:]

[sad><]

[Qiu]

OMG

lol..yesterday i saw angel's blogger,she say my 'tao hua yun'[like alot boys cum n kao a gul] came d>< but..n she also say..but no use la..i only like 1 guy xD
ya..i also feel abit la..coz tis few dayz also quite bz coz of all those guyz..i use alot excuses 2 reject them d..like: scare 2 pak toh,wanna study,don wan pak toh,tell them how bad i'm,(no answers)..i'm tired d..last time all tis joB is his..but now i ned 2 gao tim myself..damn tired o..

n yesterday i also saga ply bball..i got hurt at my waist n last toe>< pain o..but i still can tahan la xD
2day at home..bored bored bored..ltR c got wat funny thingz happen only post again ya..wkaka^^