Today.

Aw...lazy to type my whole day time table, nth much happen, like normal. Something makes my heart beats goes fast again, but Im not sure isit real. :)
Okeys, nth much to talk abt just post a pica that toke today la.

Today I decided to clip it up,looks weird rite? xDD

+ My hair looks so brown de? LOL.
+ my hair vry messy, but still NICE ♥

I rather choose to love some1 better than some1 loves me ♥

вƳ: мƨ. ǪƖʋ ♥

30th of May.

   Today I went to OU wif roonhem. I was abit felt sorry, bcoz at 1st was ah fei asked me out 1st, but last time I pushes ardy. Then roonhem call me on today morning, at 1st I wanted to push it too, but since ardy quite late lo, so just wanted to only go watch movie.

meet quite alot of roomhem's fren [lucky I looks like a boy] , n meet lots of my fren too [some paiseh to say 'hi'] :))

today memang alot ppl go o, line up for ticket take me half an hour. :((

So we watched

^ kung fu panda 2

^and here is my ticket.

aw..the roonhem in the cinema kept 'zhat' whose popcorn to me, i don wan to eat liao still force me to eat. (the time I was really really fully, just finish my lunch)

^after the movie we go to wong kok to yam cha.

They shop now change til blue blue de.

NICE :))

^this is me in wong kok.

(I looks so blur, no smile.)

After that I when back home n toke few pica. :))

Today was really tired.
*take a deep breath*
I wanna take a goooood rest :]]
Hope no more dreams tonight,
just let me sleep well.

My last 3 days & Today.

Fri 27th of May.
early morning last min decided to go to c fasting camp so that day abt 3 something we go to a place call AL-SAKINAH (near Janda Baik). was in side 1 of the forest, at 1st I tot was vry 'lao ya' place, but is not wat I think at all, it was nice, the room was nice, n the BED was nice too :))

Sat 28th of May.
Today will be the fasting day, we were in DRY FAST, means, no food no drink, early morning we walked walked 1 of the garden there, aw....it was wonderful! n relaxing too. after that we hav some programmes too. The environment there was really let ppl feel the peaceful n relax. Makes me 4get abt all my suffering, all my city lifestyle. Btw, the stars over there was much more than KL's stars, was really nice n bright. On that day, I almost 4got abt my hunger, I just get hungry on 9am morning & 6pm.

Sun 29th of May.
Haha, I survive! I'm still right here :))
early morning we hav FOOD! real food!n we hav some Yoga. After lunch we just when back. I didn't measure my weight yet, dono got reduce ardy anot leh.

Mon 30th of May.
aw..my hair getting longer n longer,  feel like cutting it back, but scare need to wait again, haiz. so no choice la, TAHAN while la :))
Today no activity for me, need to rest at home today.
Wanted to go Sabah & Sarawak, but I don think my frens can go :(

No pica today,
sorry.
But,
Im glad your here,
watching at my bloggie. :)

wakaka!

Hoho! 2morrow is my last day of exam!! wa....vry HAPPY! 2morrow is b.cina n moral paper!! xDD
B.cina? no need read! moral?! haha, no ned c tim la xDD
but think carefully time really goes vry fast, so fast HOLIDAYS is coming. My 2 weeks holiday? wat m I gonna do leh?
SLEEP?
for sure being pig, late sleep late wake.
SHOPPING?
sure lo, money will go missing ardy lo.
IN FRONT OF THE TV?
of course la, like a lazy pig.
FB-ING & IN FRONT OF THE LAPTOP?
haiz, not ned say also know.

Haiz, no think plan ardy know wat will happen. Sien! cannot le, need to find some1 or something to play wif sin! if not sure bored sei ngo lo.

Btw, play also all play b4 liao, still got wat havent play leh? No Fun ardy leh. study suffer, bored suffer. haiz. sien lo. GOD ar! quickly give me something to play la, this 2 weeks holiday sure sien die lo.
Alot of frens, sudah couple-ed. Left my class those, guai guai de. Mix wif them also quite good de, at least no need to think so much, laugh then really laugh from heart, say de always is tooooo logic, crazy 1? haha, also got.
But they don really hav any plan (just shop), all my frens too, bored nia, need to find outsiders ardy, i think they hav more plan bah. :DD

Do I really wanna be TB? haha, no la, seriously not. I don hav that look la, cannot leh,  who said girls cannot cut boy hair? nowadays lots n lots of actress cut-ed long hair ardy, their still like girl ar, so do I. But is just that I quite different than the others, I like to kept changing, I cannot stop for any reason, this is only my STYLE. last time i han been said by some1 that my style is 'I will kept on go forward, I don like to stop. If I stop, means something is happening to me' yea, i do agree if that, cause I know Im a type of girl that like to kept on going or changing, I cannot stop, n I don like to stop, thats y I wanna find a job that I can run around, if work in a office or in science lab? NO WAY! I cannot, i don think i wan work more than half a year. Haha, so this is only call YING QIU. so, Im back! my crazy, unsteady & funny life is back! xDD

Haha, today no pica, left it for next time..

post again next time,

BYE ♥

21TH may :DD

Today morning sleep until around 11am then abt 12am tuition bm til 1:30pm then straight to another tuition from 1:45pm to 3:30pm for add math, actually is my bio t.teacher, but abt mon we hav add math tuition so she teach us add maths lo :DD

after all my tuition then go back home, fb-ing for awhile then go out for dinner n movie ardy.

^ is wat movie I watch today

and this ^ is my TICKET :DD

2morrow feel like going out,
but I push all my fren's date,
hmm,
so who I wan to go out wif 2morrow?
LOL.
I dono my own mind, IMBA.

FRIday♥

FRiday again, 1 week just go like this :]]
today's exam add math tough but bio 'easy busy'. Hehe, today study abit add maths.

then c drama n fb-ing :DD
 today 5pm+ my mind suddenly pop out some1 that I wanted to c from my window, but I don think so ngam he will come out gua. x tau y suddenly think of him, just maybe long time did't meet ardy gua. I rmb last few days, so ngam I was on phone so in front of my window n so ngam saw him too. but too far ardy, just can see he's action. Today dono y suddenly wanna c him, maybe suddenly just miss a fren, no other thinking. *seriously* :)
('HIM' is not hao ya, don mistaken, 'HIM' is just another fren of mine)
today skype phone wif nick n ks talk abt MONEY xDD
Today not really many things happen, like normal la. also SIEN.

HTC HD7!! yoU memang leng! aw..I wan :]] (i think im too play ardy, like 1 phone not more than 3 months then change aim ardy)

aw..lazy to type liao, 2morrow say again la.
btw, nowadays my time like fully book liao, x tau y xDD

My babee is studying add maths like ME :D

then fb-ing xDD

:DD

wink wink ;)

bigg SMILEE

my babee.

:))

I still like the single life style.

no worries,

I ♥ FREEdom.

LOL. exam day.

Exam week!
still on facebooking?! :DD
still on playing mood?! :DD
still on dramas?! :DD
still on blogger?! :DD

PAiseh, yea, my mood was damn freak me out in my study mood weih.
but lucky Im still not really playful until 4got to study.
Today was sej paper 2 n bio paper 2 (essays paper) , my godness! bio alsmost the whole paper I know how to do but sej memang mati! all dono how to do. I wanted to meniru on sej paper but x tau y teacher like ardy know wat i wanna do ardy, I sit on the POCKET NOTES that the refences book FREE to us. but unlucky was the whole book don hav the answer that the exam paper 1, you say lagi sei mou?! haiz. then I also no idea ardy, so SY wanted to POCKET NOTES so I try to pass to her, but bcoz teacher is looking at us, so i ask 1 of my fren to so called 'JIA JIA' to ask teacher question while she was asking I pass the note to her but when my fren stand up n walk to teacher, teacher point at me n say 'ying qiu ar, don talk! around infornt' walau a, I also havent give signal to SY teacher sudah tau. haiz, FAIL again. then nvm lo, the 2nd time was, teacher tot I ask my fren answer (im not) so teacher stand beside of my quite awhile then I can't do anything wat, then i wait teacher face her back to me quickly pass it to her lo. then i just sleep for that 1 n a HALF HOUR lo. after that last 5 min yap jun only say he knows abit so we quickly pass his answer lo, lucky still can copy dou but total not more than 15 marks leh (his answer). haiz. also know will FAIL ardy, tried how hard to meniru also no help ardy.
After exam, I asked SY got copy dou anything from the pocket notes? she said: 'walau, wat also don hav, nvr copy dou' i also say 'yea lo, wasted ardy' then kar kit come (bcoz b4 that we ardy say de, the pocket notes after passing it to SY then pass it to kar kit) then he said 'yea lo, wat also don hav, no use de' haiz...get ready liao, but end up get a 'GAT' DD:

2morrow add maths n bio1, add maths sure die, haiz, *praying* hope that won be as hard as wat I think la.

now im chasing 1 drama name

點解阿Sir係阿Sir

haha, it was really funny. :DD
+ i like 杨怡's boy hair. aw..nice la weih. xDD
this time only upload 1 of my pica. =]

*WINK WINK* :DD

Things had over just let it be,
im fine for now :]
THE END :]

:]

Hehe, back again. today in a better mood, so feel like posting a post :]

14th May
midnight 2am noma's cousin call me n ask me to go out 2morrow for lunch, so I woke up a 11/12am bath n do finish my thing then 2:30pm only went out wif Noma n his cousin go jusco eat sushii n eat pao bing :DD
aw, the nicest part was I eat for FREE :DD x payah pay, coz got ppl pay for me. Haha, eat also eat dou happy lo. after that I went back home around 5pm then Elaine fetch me out again xDD went out wif her til almost 7pm only reach home. Then went out to eat wif my family then reach home on9 for awhile then on SKYPE wif Angel around 10pm then we stop our call for awhile coz jian tian kor wanna tell me something so I just on video call wif him for awhile also, bcoz his fren invite him to play dota, so we stop n he ask me to wait until he finish. :D then back to angel, video call wif her. Until 12:35am she needs to off ardy, so we stop n my the other kor name jo-e on skype too, so we had video call TOO. haha. memang funny was, cause this kor vry paiseh 1, so he on video call without talking xDD k sui o? :]
Wait for jian tian kor until 2:30am still belum on I also abit tired cause all also off liao, so I just send him a msg that I wanna off ardy, n just off my notebook then go be PIG liao lo.
Okeys, this is end of my day. :]









Haha, I had let go ardy,
now when ppl tell me abt his things,
I will be like..

'you tell me for wat? His things is NON OF MY BUSINESS, who cares? LOL' :DD


OK! PICA TIME!

 In SKYPE wif angel.

 < My exam time tables. >

HIGHLIGHTED
IS WAT I TAKE

Perasan 1

B4 going to school:] Perasan 2

:D Perasan 3

 14TH OF MAY take b4 going out :DD

:DD

Hehex, paiseh ya, now only come back. Aw...exams is coming DD: STUDY STUDY STUDY. memang x like study de lo. My baddest subject was add math n modern math, you say isit 'DIE mou'? i found some1 to teach me, but i x da time to wait for him to on9, i rather think by myself, but the thing is I used 2 days to think how to solve a question, you say isit betul 'sei'? Haiz...i also dono this term i can pass anot. Last time i don scare my math got problem jek, but now memang worry. :[[

The date of today is 9th of May, make me think of HIM :DD
I think he won c my blog ardy, n i don wish that he would c too, then i would dare to post my feeling here, for next time i c i will c back how stupid m I today n now xDD

Today I saw back the video that i made http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150138576562810 n yea, i do CRY. But is not as hurt as the 1st time ardy. If he's still wif me, i won be cry now. If he's still wif me, i won be suffering in studys now. If he's still wif me, now he will be in phone wif me. I know my if it won happen, but it will reminds me of 'IS TIME TO LET GO'. think back he do changed alot, his style, the way i know him from the 1st day, I still like the style that i know him the 1st day, although is not really leng zaii, but in a way that it shows that he is nice to mix wif. :DD
Yea, I agree that every couple will change after couple, is the same wif after married. But the main thing is you 2 still love each other rite? n slowly you will start to accept it. For a normal couple cant couple after 3 months, i think im 1 of them. :DD

After I break for this time, I can c actually im not different at all. Im same like the others. A secrete i kept quite long time ardy, i dono did i post the scene, I dono which day, i went home by walking from his house without telling him, yea, that day, I wanted to say break ardy, But too sad the thing is when i reached home sitting on my bed then I feel the feeling when ham leave me that kinda pain, if a person tells 'the other 1' to break up is not as hurt as 'the other 1' so that day i changed my mind last min, n decided to wait for him to say to me, i know he was 'the other 1' b4, so i was to selfish to be the 'the other 1'. n now I did it. :DD
That day although outside was raining I still choose to walk home, n I said to myself if he doesn't run out for me at that moment I really just walk home alone, the result was he just stay at home, n take his bath. So i just cant stand, n just a few tears while im in the rain, it was really painful, + I wanted to break after that, the reason is, I had changed, not my mine or my heart is my style n I felt he is no longer mine.
He always dislike when he wanted to fetch me home but i don let him, i always say 'if the time comes i only tell you'. The reason is I WANNA APPRECIATE EVERYTIME WHEN YOU ONLY FETCH ME. N EVERYTIME, n everytime i choose to sit behind is because everytime b4 we reached to my house I will use my 2nd finger (pointing) to gentlely write behide your sit that I LOVE YOU ♥  (but if I don wanna write or I sit infornt cannot write behind you I will just give you a goodbye kiss :D)
This is what I started to do when I realize I don really appreciate everytime when you fetch me.

*take a deep breath* Time had help me slowly blur up your look when I looked at you for the last time ardy, maybe I had slowly get use to my SINGLE LIFE ♥

I cut my boy hair alot of ppl kept saying abt his bad words, said that he likes me when im in long hair, cut jo so x like ardy, I tot i will just let them say as they like, but funny, I would kept project your name, said 'no, he is not like this, you don understand him'. But i just kept this feeling as a fren's feelings, just like your fren's name kena said my other abt bad, but you as a fren of 'fren' should stand out to say something right? Hehex, maybe this is my style? :DD But now I clear that I had let go ardy. [aherm, btw, it doen't mean I will couple again] Those love story not ngam ardy ardy. Sorry :DD

Wow, 1 month ardy nvr reload xDD don feel like reloading, cause I reload ardy also not free to sms de. So so sorry to my friends that kept sms me without replying :DD
Feel like changing phone ardy, but still not enough money to buy :[[ i think this year end only enough money bah :[[

Last thurs, I just get a news abt ham, his bro just pass aways from a accident, Haiz, 2 years ago I will got contact wif his bro, he's quite a nice guy (better than ham). Hope he will enjoy in "heaven". He passed away too sudden ardy, reminds me, Appreciate what you really have right now, cause we won know wat will happen on the next sec.

Today so bad luck, kena catch by pengawas said I colour hair again. Haiz, all there also boys kena, im the only girl kena memang fish, but all the guys there I know so they help me curi curi block the pengawas n let me go back to class, haha, it really happen, I was damn bad la. My hair will kena catch when the sun rises, so when perhimpuan I always don like the sun n my hair will turn colour, sure kena de lo. DD:

Okey, this comes the end of my bloggie, I hope anything happen to me, I will still kept a BIG SMILE on my face ♥ :DD

Don worry friends,
I will be just alright.
If you really wanna do something for me,
Just be there when I need you guys :DD
*I let go everything ardy*
:DD

2.5.2011 [mon] is an holiday :DD

Back to my bloggie again xDD sorry abt the post ya, 1 month post once only, i try to post everyday if i can. Ok, just say things that just happen is this 2 weeks.

my match hav just over, n we LOSE ardy.. im quite disappointed abt it, cause im not doing my best, im not using all my free time to practice + improve. But lucky we don lose til vry fish la. we just broke the egg. the 2 match damn tough to play leh. the 1st match i broke the egg n just can score 4 marks, the 2nd match was siuen she score 2 marks. I know every1 tried their best to play ardy, but maybe the time is too short so they can't really improve that fast. So the others also know who n who cannot let 'them' take the bball, damn not fair leh weih. DD:  Ok, forget abt it!! n just hope that next year can play better. :DD

This week im not vry sure y im happy cant make it longer, vry fast then back to neutral + moody ardy. I wanted to be happy all the while, maybe 40% is abt my match n 60% is abt my own emotional problem bah. vry cool, don talk much. I don like who m i now. I don feel myself in myself. DD:

Today is an holiday, labour day they replaced it to today so early morning i went to the hill in kenanga opposite the mosque, i did something that i usually don do. Is to pick up RUBBISH!! xDD don belive rite? yea, is true, i went there wif my mum to clean up that hill. We total collected 4 full plastic bags of rubbish. It was quite tired but after doing i felt vry happy inside me, maybe bcoz it was my 1st time doing good thing to this world bah xDD
After that i went to sieng hse to meet her bcoz she said she wanted to go shopping wif me, at 1st i don wanna go bcoz im not quite feel well + tired too, but end up i still go maybe bcoz i ardy promiss ppl to go but i put plane abit x good bah. So i when to her hse at 12:30pm like that, n meet up noma n we dono that he will bring his frens too + at 1st we tot noma will fetch us to the train station but unluckly he said he walk here too. LOL. haiz, then we walk to coco mart n meet up sieng's fren i think it was the guy that her mum said the FAT FAT 1? LOL. then we take taxi straight to sungai wang 1st, we spit in 2 cars, me, noma n his 2 fren in 1 car ; sieng, her sis n sieng's fren in 1 car. half way there suddenly noma said he wanna go kepong jusco to meet his gf so the taxi U-turn agian to fetch that NOMA there lo. fetch dropped him, then we go sungai wang lo. In the car i totally dono noma's fren de, n sieng also dono them de, then we just diam diam in car lo. until we reached i called sieng whr she is n go meet her up lo. She asked me to wait at GREEN BOX, then noma's 2 fren n I walk there n wait for her, while waiting that 2 guy asked me wanna go back kepong jusco to c movie anot? wait here vry waste time + we like dono each other like that, vry k yeng leh. Then here comes sieng, her fren bring 3 more frens come, LOL, mean total got 9 ppl there i only know sieng n her sis only other x tau de. n noma's frens also dono sieng's de fren. then suddenly they ask me again, wanna go back kepong jusco? then i said if can i wanted to, but you also pay jo taxi bill for rm35 leh. then he say nvm la, just go back la. then i talked wif sieng how to sette this, then our conclusion is I go wif them to kepong jusco n she go wif her frens. Then we go back to KEPONG JUSCO  again. we reach there abt 3pm then we brought ticket for 4pm, but lucky i cut tb style so they felt more easy to mix so we can chat along n kept zhat each other too. n i just know that from we chat i know that the guy wif qiute long hair is memang dai gor lai de (i tot i told myself not to know all this dai gor again) , n the other 1 is his fren. n that dai gor damn rich la weih, + for their look in school 100% black listed but they result damn shock leh, that dai gor 100% marks (the highest sub) for math leh. my god, their result all A or B de leh. LOL.  after the movie we just went back lo. n they promised me next time go eat sushi call me too, cause they r sushi lover too, 2 more sushi kaki ardy xDD.

Okeys, this is the end of my post. 2morrow try to post again la :DD
NIGHTS.

:DD

Hey, sorry, for so long nvr post anything ardy. Today i just open back my blog. This few days happened too many things ardy. n the main thing 3 things that take time to solve it.

1st thing: i think every1 had know i broke up, yea, so i admit i cried quietly n i think i had let go ardy. Ok, things over ardy, 4get abt it. [my broke up date: 31th of Mac 2011] i will re-edit my blog when im free. :DD

2nd thing: my bball thing. Jersey..team mate..LOL. too many ardy, so now i almost use up my 80% of time for training n kept gettting hurt, last last week was leg kena 'shui pao' cant walk, last week was ankle problem although i know i cannot run or jump but i continue (ok, i know wat im doing), this week was my knee, i fall down n my knee blue black ardy n bleed. So..conclusion is......My legs are gonna be cacat ardy xD [maybe im too 'bok maing' ardy, coz im using bball time to reduce my time where im alone.]

3rd thing: is my studies. haiz...this 1 memang nth to say. Do 1 presentation ardy take me 1 days x sleep well. + other sub coming ardy. But i will still put 100% effort on it.

LOL. so now i'm totally lack of rest n sleeping time. But no worries babee, i will be just alright, im ying qiu wo, i can overcome it de. just need time only, n i know im lack of time now :DD

ok, next time i come back i will re-edit my blog ya. Ok, the end.

saw zhu zaii's blog.♥

i just wanna post a simple bloggie. i had change from the day i know zhu zaii.
I'm ardy not that
(1) crazy
(2) funny
(3) sweet
(4) caring
(5) loving
(6) good
(7) who always kept positive

Yea, i do, i really had changed. Just now i just see his blog *http://hao-aka-zz.blogspot.com/* n c all the old post. We were very sweet...everyday got different thing / surprise, we enjoy 'zhat'-ing each other, enjoy 'webcam'-ing, enjoy the way we treat each other. But slowly things change, no wonder alot of couple cannot stand for 3 months. But xiiao zhu n zhu zaii did, we can continue for more than 4 months ardy. Slowly we don really appreciate what we really say to each other, we don be as sweet as last time, we get bored in our conversation, we don really need each other. Isit a vry big different? can we continue? can we overcome it? isit normal?

I really wanna thank you the 'god' who plan this for me. I know zhu zaii when it was my 15th bday (9th sept 2010) , although i don get much present, but a 'god' had give me a BIGGGG present, that is............. a guy named ZHI HAO that makes my life different, who change my life from thinking back the 'BAD' things that happen. This is what i always say to myself. Rmb 'dai gau shui' ? the cherry thing? Hehe. [if you don understand can c back my old old post]

Our every first time:
(1)   the day that we hav dinner together (pizza hut)
(2)   the day we go from jogging together & the time that i felt you r different (dpc & in car)
(3)   the day that we had cam together
(4)   that day we go crazy (dpc)
(5)   that day you helped me in my studies (mcd)
(6)   that day you came to my hse when i said i miss you (outside of my hse 12 midnite)
(7)   that day you teaches me how to take bus from bsd to 1u (bus stop)
(8)   that day you pick me home from work (ou)
(9)   that day your 1st time fetch me from your new car (car LATIO)
(10) that day you purposely go up to genting although you cant (genting)
(11) that day you 'gao bai' wif me in freeze (genting)
(12) that day you 1st time cook for me (fetching me back from work)
(13) that day i call you at 3am n i was late (your bday)
(14) that day you sacrifice that 1 week together wif jia wen (bec of me)
(15) that day i told you that i miss you until i cant slp (5th oct 2010)
(16) that day we 1st time saying hamsap things (in phone)
(17) that day we talked in phone in 4 hrs 10 min the longest phone call (8th oct 2010)
(18) that month almost every night don let me go to slp want me to talk wif you until we feel vry vry tired (oct 2010)
(19) that day you 1st time cried for me (11th oct)
(20) that day you 1st time fetch me to tuition n the 1st kiss n my cheek (12th oct)
(21) that day we took train from kepong sentral to times square (WINDOW SHOPPING)
(22) that day we 1st time watch movie together (17th oct 2010)
(23) that day we had your 1st kiss when you fetch me back from work (31th oct)
(24) the time i felt myself was your bf n you're my gf (almost everytime)
(25) the 1st bigggg surprise i give you n i put it in your car (after fetching me from work 11th nov)
(26) that day my sick day you give me a warm feeling (in your hse)
(27) that day you gave me a valentine gift (valentine day)
(28) that day you played piano for me a song name KISS THE RAIN (in your room)
(29) that day once we meet each other i will take your phone to set a reminder or note or appointment or a alarm to tell you that i miss you. (almost everytime i c dou *last time*)
(30) i gave you a surprise in your phone (hide it at your battery)
(31) gave you a goodbye kiss when ever you fetch me (in car)
(32) that day we go walk walk n dance in front of me until the sky bcum dark (dcp)
(33) that day saw your mum n dad while we're eating n ask them to join us (dcp)
(34) sing song to me *quite loud, alot ppl look at us* (in train)
(35) that day b4 i go off to taiwan i post a blog to tell you wat you need to look at yourself (18th dec)
(36) that 3 month we celebrate our anniversary together (9th dec, jan, feb)
(37) that day we 1st time hug each other but got 2 thing so ngam 1 was the uncle looking at us while we were hugging n 2 was so ngam it was a love song came out from the radio
(38) that day you pui me go play bball (saga court)
(39) that day i test you c you really appreciate the other things when you're together wif me. how many times we came out together? 8times *that time*  (in skype)
(40) the day i cooked for you (in my hse)
(41) the day you came to my hse to hav lunch n my parents r in home (cny)

haha, too much too much liao.. but if without him, my story will me all in sadness only. *take a deep breath* He's the 1 i love, before, now n after. Today...i just drop few tears bcoz of him. but slowly it recover that pain n my heart ardy. Yea, i know, i'm a stupid girl. i know at least a stupid girl still got a person wants. Wow, this blog i has type for 3 hours ardy, broke record ardy. Alot of his memories in my mind flows like showing in a cinema, we hav laugh together, cry together, crazy together, paiseh together, n love each other.

My life will get bored,

without him♥
He's the different 1 ♥

Do i love him?
Yes, i do, i really do♥

♥

tada!! back to my bloggie :DD

today also lazy to type just post few pica la.

Today i went to mid valley.

n brought ticket from GSC.

n the movie was..

this is my tickets...

it was really nice :DD

n 1 more. b4 i go off my hse to mid valley, i toke a pica of myself :]

THE END..

My short boy hair

Okeys, in today's bloggie nth much. just post an pica of my short boy hair la. it was really short. LOL.

a very painful day..

today i went to cut my hair..it was tomboy's style.. but at 1st i tot it suits me. but now nope. it was really short n it cuts until my curl came out. Now..i wan kinda regret of to be so playful. from i just same out from the saloon i don really dare to watch myself from the mirror. Last time i'm also like that b4, it was 4 years ago.... i don dare to really look myself from the mirror, bcoz i scare wat i c is not wat i think. and i tot i had overcome this problem..but...nope.it came to me again.. last time no matter how isit at least i still hav alittle bit more confident but now? totally gone.......i had lost my confident....is just like i had lost everything. but at least i still hav a fren, i name him dai lou..yea..in tuition i just act that i'm vry confident but he look through me n tell me i looks fine. looks ok wat, won be that bad la, slowly you will get use to it..dono y i really wanna tell him thank you :]

wow...just a hair cut or a hair style my life totally changed. i told him ardy. i tot he will giv me some confident coz now.....i really needs him. i don dare to tell him, bcoz now once i look at the mirror i felt that he won likes it, n something some starts to happen, n in my outlook now..it doesn't even match wif him...dono y..i will hav this thinking everytime when i look myself in front of the mirror.and he nvr just kept telling me not to cry n don think so much. yea..i had tried too..but the point is... i know that you also cares abt my outlook. last time my hair damages n ardy lost some confident of being in front of you. but now? worse..i know that i miss you alot n i needs you, but i don dare to let you look at me. my heart now really feel sour n pain..really really pain.. if i'm single in this outlook no body wants me nvm..but now...no...i don feel like losing another thing from my daily life. but i don wan him to felt pity abt me so outside say can accept but deep in the heart nope. if he just pity me only continue wif me then i rather not to continue. haiz..... YING QIU HAS LOST HER CONFIDENT ARDY. n she cant find it......she vry 'cha' lo, just know how to cry.. she knows that nobody will help her ardy but she just wanna act like a kid cry on the floor waiting for mummy to help..YING QIU vry 'cha' leh!!

i misss him now..i really wan him to appear in front of me..i really needs him now...but...bcoz of my confident..i don hav anything ardy.

'CONFIDENT' whr r you?

i get lost in myself ardy.

no1 will helps me,

n i'm so stupid,

crying over there..

now...

i really needs a ...

great warm hugg..

but..

i know i won get it.

no matter how isit,

i just know that..

I.L.H.

-Kiss the rain & River Flows in you-

*listening at it*