2nd post.

Today dono y wif zhu zaii like nth to chat, like got sumthing between us, but i cant feel wat is tat. Mayb is bcoz our mood gua, but i 1st time wif him like nth to talk like tis. Usually in 1 call we talk quite alot de, but not for 2day.. I think bcoz he is too tired ardy bah, i had tried to cheer him up, but useless.. Make me no mood, don feel like talk to any 1, don feel like replying any 1. I tot tat today i can comany him longer bcoz last few days i cant really talk to him much, but nvm la. I miss him, but dono y my miss is like make me vry bo mood, wanted tp c him but cannot,wanted to tell him how i miss him but don hav the feeling of telling him. Today i really realized between us like got sumthing,juz now skype ask wan update skype mou den i was thinking to ask zhu zaii on bak skype de but feel like bo mood so nvr la, next time bah..suddenly feel scare he will b like ham, between me n ham also like tis slowly nth to talk n nvr chat ardy. Dono y got 'yam ying' ardy, feel scare to b alone again, i don wanna b alone, really really lonely..cry alone..sad alone..everything only myself noe. Sumtimes i wanna tell him bcuz i scare he will kept saying me n say jor wat he can do? change my mind wif another ppl? Hahax! wan sot jor. ok le don think le, mayb i think too much le, i go sleep even better no ned think wake up back to normal. (: