Hahax! post again xD

2day went zhu zaii hse at almost 12:30pm+ we walk there n when i walk til kenaga's guard hse a men driving myvi looking at us like he knows us, den zhu zaii suddenly stun awhile n look at me tell me tat was his neighbor's car n the men in there knows him..we were like soh po n soh lou walk to his hse lo. When we reached his hse, he ask me to wait for him far outside from his hse coz he knows i scare of dog so he tooks his dog out n ask me to go in. When i went in i juz sit on a chair n enjoy the wind from the FAN. Den he said tat behide there also got 1 more dog but at is a PUPPY, so he bring 'him' out for me to c lo. tat time i was really really scare, coz in my whole life i nvr really touch a dog b4. Tat time i didn't touch den he ask me to study at his kitchen n he put his dog on 1 of the kitchen's chair. He kept asking me to study but my mind is 100% on the DOG nia. Den he bring his dog out the living room n ask him not to come, i'm kinda pity 'him' but i'm scare of DOGS! Haiz, no choice lo. When we continue studying n his mom suddenly called home n ask do he wants lunch den zhu zaii ask for 1 more pack for me lo. Suddenly his saw his dad came back ardy, he was really scare n he really frighten me too. He makes me feel vry nervous n i juz act nth. Then when his bro comes in,i tot was his dad so i called 'uncle' den he ans me 'en'. Den zhu zaii laugh at me n said tat was his bro call 'gor gor' ar. walau i was really paiseh nia, coz tat time zhu zaii told me was his dad so i juz saw i guy came in den i juz call uncle lo. den the 2nd who comes in was his bro's gf, quite leng luii nia. Den the 3rd 1 is only zhu zaii's dad den i call again uncle xD walau tat time i was really scare you noe + tat zhu zaii also feel scare coz he 1st time bring a gurl home. Den zhu zaii's mom came back too n nvr really ask anythings only put the food at the table. Den me n zhu zaii juz continue study lo. 3pm den only we eat our lunch but my stomach was totally no feelings, from morning until 3pm i nvr eat a meal but my stomack feel nth, but i still eat lo. Eat until half way zhu zaii's dog comes n i try to slowly touch him n i played wif him [really really the 1st time] after tat i cant finish my food den zhu zaii ask me to left at the table for the dog outside to eat so i juz follow wat he said lo. 4:30pm he ask me wanna go back ardy bcoz i noe he got function at 5pm so i juz say 'go lo'. B4 we go back we go saga court awhile to play bball. den we started playing 2 on 2, walau in tat match we won but i don really feel really happy coz all the ball i shoot 100 don hav any in nia, i was really angry n kept thinking

i'm cuming saga court again to practice, but zhu zaii say not ask me to focus on my omr 1st wo, ok lo. when back home put down my bag n sit infront of the tv n watch until 5:30pm den c phone while saw zhu zaii smsed me n call me, he ask me not to b so disappointed n i called him awhile too. B4 we close the phone he asked me to bath n i said i will but after tat i havnot bath until now xD after tat i juz hear some song from my phone n i;m wearing headphone while doing my math, suddenly kept thinking of zhu zaii while he was teaching me math n while he was playing bball,aw.....my mind was full of his face..beh tahan beh tahan.. Den i try to tell myself tat i ned to focus on my math bcoz 2morrow i'm having math paper so..ned to close ardy, 2 days later post again lo xD

[Good luck to myself^^]

From: Xiiao Zhu♥ muacks.

Post song only xD

Juz woke up listen some song wif my headphone damn 'song' nia.
Charging my phone, in in front of the pc juz clicking arond,
Looking around c wat i do,
havnot bath yet juz wash my face,
brush my teeth, lazy.. lol.

Ltr going out wif zhu zaii nia, hav lunch 2gether n he will b teaching me math [tak tahu he boleh tak] but nvm la, got chance to c him xD

Yesterday let my dad say abit, he said tat my bm will get FAIL wo, makes me vry worry n unhappy.. But after 4awhile den back to normal mode xD

After cuming Mon n Tues my exam gonna finish ardy, wait for tat day.......

Nothing to do....going crazy!!! xD

2nd post.

Today dono y wif zhu zaii like nth to chat, like got sumthing between us, but i cant feel wat is tat. Mayb is bcoz our mood gua, but i 1st time wif him like nth to talk like tis. Usually in 1 call we talk quite alot de, but not for 2day.. I think bcoz he is too tired ardy bah, i had tried to cheer him up, but useless.. Make me no mood, don feel like talk to any 1, don feel like replying any 1. I tot tat today i can comany him longer bcoz last few days i cant really talk to him much, but nvm la. I miss him, but dono y my miss is like make me vry bo mood, wanted tp c him but cannot,wanted to tell him how i miss him but don hav the feeling of telling him. Today i really realized between us like got sumthing,juz now skype ask wan update skype mou den i was thinking to ask zhu zaii on bak skype de but feel like bo mood so nvr la, next time bah..suddenly feel scare he will b like ham, between me n ham also like tis slowly nth to talk n nvr chat ardy. Dono y got 'yam ying' ardy, feel scare to b alone again, i don wanna b alone, really really lonely..cry alone..sad alone..everything only myself noe. Sumtimes i wanna tell him bcuz i scare he will kept saying me n say jor wat he can do? change my mind wif another ppl? Hahax! wan sot jor. ok le don think le, mayb i think too much le, i go sleep even better no ned think wake up back to normal. (:

Few days ago...

1st n 2nd of oct- afternoon tat time i promises zhu zaii tat i will wish 'happy bday' him the 1st 1 at the next day [2nd oct]. But tat nite i was really tired, so i set my alarm at 11:45pm in 1st of oct. But unfortunately i didn't wake up n when i was woke up is ardy 3am in the morning. So i quickly went out to my room n go to the com. room to take the hse phone. [tat time my phone no credit ardy] den i juz quickly call zhu zaii to say tat i'm sorry n wish him happy bday. After calling zhu zaii, i still feel very guilty, so i post at my fb wall, post at zhu zaii's fb wall & send him a inbox. It took me half an hour to finish nia. After tat i only go back to slp. the next day 2nd of oct, i ned go to tuition early in the morning 10am, n after tis i'm going to mcd for the study group. My dad fetch me to tuition den fetch me to mcd tat time i kept yawning, den my dad ask 'y? vry tired? not enough slp?' den i say 'yaa' den my dad say 'den today don study ardy la, go home take a nap 1st la' i said 'cannot cannot cannot, wan exam ardy, cannot' so my dad juz do wat i say n juz fetch me to mcd lur. In mcd we study sci, math..[4got ardy] walau, tat time i was really tired but i juz kept tahan, n at first we said tat 5pm go back de..but slowly,,from 11am to 8:30pm nia, walau..really geng lo. N tat time i kept ask zhu zaii the math question tat i dono how to do, he answered me n he kept asking 'whr r you?' i juz kept silent or say don so 8 gua la, bec i juz once i saw him i sure feel like relaxing n don wanna study ardy, so i juz don tell him lo. But after tat he get mad bcuz i didn't tell him, tat the i dono so i juz continue wat i'm doing. Usually if he get angry,mad, bad mood or no mood i will tam him de, bcuz tat 1 i really dono he was angry so i juz do my work lo. After tat my dad juz fetch my frens [sieng n ke qian] home lo.

3rd Oct-mid nite chat in phone wif zhu zaii from 2nd oct 11pm gua til 3:30am nia, phone also wan boom ardy. at first zhu zaii say chat til morning de but i say cannot coz [sieng n ke qian] going to my hse early in the morning 8 or 9am. Morning tat time my another fren [yan teng] she call me at 8am+ tell mme tat she will come my hse to giv me bak the geo book at 8:30am almost 9am, so i juz say ok ok. After tat sieng call me, she said tat she is cuming ardy. Tat time i was like vry tired, so i juz tell her i'm still sleeping den she say, ok, you open the door ardy den you continue sleep. den ok lo, i juz do wat she said until the open door part only, after tat tat ke qian kept call me to go bath lo, den i nvr slp den juz bath lo. Ok den we study from 9:30am to almost 6pm nia, but at 5:30pm we call to genting to book the rooms, n to check the time-ing. Walau, tat day i was totally tired man, after they went back home, i take a nap til 7:30pm den my dad comes in n say 'wanna go out for dinner? go out relax 4awhile lo.' den i juz go follow my dad n mum to hav dinner. When we r in the way back i told my mum tat i help ke qian n sieng to go in account class, den my dad deng me n said 'y you study wif all those fools? if you continue like will you will also bcum a fools' i said 'walau, fools?' den he said 'you should study wif all those pandai than me de only can help dou myself' tat time i was quite no mood bcoz my dad said my frens r fools so i juz said loudly tat i got study wif geng de ppl also lo like sin siuen. den my dad said 'you c r past trailer exam wat marks you hav? you got fail ar' den i suddenly feel like wanna cry n juz tahan n said 'walau, did you c my others result? i in prove almost all sub 10 marks bcoz of tat geo FAIL you cover everythings ardy? tat 10 marks not enough? when wat you still wan? i teach them i also learn n gain more bcoz its help me to revision myself, n i also study wif geng de also no worries' den my dad said 'ok, den you prove to me tat yr tis pmr can get good result' den i juz in very confident situation n said 'ok, i prove to you' After i went back home i tou tou cry for a little awhile n dono y the 1st 1 i think was zhu zaii, i wanted him to company me. Usually in tis situation i will think of ham de, but i totally nvr think of him i juz only think of zhu zaii.but end up, i did not ask him to company me n i tahan n juz go to slp.

4th of oct- i told him wat happen yesterday n he said 'c y you don wan find me?' i know he will said like tis ardy so i juz answer him honestly n said 'tat time was late nite n i really no mood so i wanna disturb you' ps, after tat i 4got wat hav happen ardy, so c the next day bah.

5th of Oct-having exam the 1st day damn scary n panic. In the morning my dad fetch me to school n kept asking me to not panic n focus on my exam. bm paper 1 n 2 finish ardy tat time was 11:30am 2am de is taking pen. Islam de so i'm seriously not taking tat subject. So i juz go back home lo.So wanted to bath n go slp til morning coz i'm vry tired arrdy. so i juz bath den slp at 5pm lo, but dono y 7:30pm tat time cannot slp ardy so juz juz on fb in phone n juz turning around my bed. Dono y tat moment i miss zhu zaii really really really badly so i decided to tell him my feelings. Den about 11pm he asked me 'you wan c me mou i cum yr hse now.' den i said ' you sot de ar? now wat time o?' den after tat about 11:35pm he suddenly call me n ask my to look outside, at first i tot was asking me to look at the moon, but not wo, he came to my hse n ask my to c him out from my window. Tat moment i juz tat he was really really ben dan leh, n i feel vry sweet n touch but i didn't tell him. He said tat bcoz i miss him really badly so he come wo, i think he really sot jor lo xD dono how i feel la, n tat time he noe tat i'm having exam tomorrow n bcoz i miss him til cant slp mayb he wanted me to slp bah. (:

6th of Oct- Having Eng paper 1 n 2 den 2pm bak to school take geo exam. Finished everything was about 3:30pm when back ardy 4pm. Behind de 4got ardy.

7th Of Oct- having Sci paper 1 n 2 den sej. I really bek chek abt yr sej n sci paper 2 so b4 i go bak home siuen n i go ply bball at school lo. n i nvr touch bball for almost 3 months ardy, so bcum cha liao, me n sieun also think we vry cha liao so said tat after pmr we go saga ply(: While we r plying suddenly alvin, Dak ming, chee hsiang n kar hoe gua came n ply too, n alvin suddenly cum near me n ask me 'so how? couple wif him ardy?' den i quickly ans him 'no wa, you luan luan say la' den he kept saying 'ya mie? i tot you couple wif him tim.' den i juz walk away n tell him 'i bcum ply gul cannot o? y wan so fast couple?' den he said 'ok ok' after tat went bak home saw zhu zaii missed call me. So i juz call him bak from using my hse phone. He call he to ask me tat 'm i bak home ardy? wan me to fetch you home anot?' i was in blur but he didn't come to school la. In there vry complicated so lazy to type go c zhu zaii blog bah xD nite chat wif zhu zaii til 12:30am+ n i know he got school 2morrow so i juz let him slp lo, usually i won let him slp de xD

8th of Oct [today]- no exam rest at home, n i called zhu zaii wanted to giv him a morning call but i'm too late ardy i call him abt 7:15am ardy. So after the call continue slping until 10am den go brush teeth n wash face den sit in front of tis pc til now lo. but juz now 10:57am zhu zaii called me ask me wanna go breakfast together but i rejected coz i don feel like going out n i havnot bath nia xD

having last two days examing 3 subject but 5 paper..aiyoyo....@.@
Last few days nvr c dou zhu zaii quite miss him, n i always think of him when i finished my exam tat free time, dono y, sot jor gua xD

To: zhu zaii *you c aft 27th sept xD

Zhu zaii, mayb next week or next next week or next next week i not free to on9 or chat wif you much so in here i want to tell you tat. If i got free time i will on9 wif my phone to c yr blog b4 i slp o.

~Tell you or wish you early 1st~
28th Sept- Nites, sweet dreams, don go late only slp.
29th Sept- wat time ardy? 2morrow no class ar? Go slp, Nites,sweet dreams.
30th Sept- on9 cukup ardy? okeys go slp now. Nite, Sweet dreams.
1st Oct- Did you look at the moon? isit bright? Okeys, nite, sweet dreams.
2nd Oct- *ring..* time to slp, go slp la. Nite, sweet dreams.
3rd Oct- Don so late only slp la, now 55 go slp. Nite, sweet dreams.
4th Oct- 2morrow is my 1st day bigg exam, wish me luck. Nite, sweet dreams.
5th Oct- 2morrow having eng n geo, wish me good luck. Nite sweet dreams.
6th Oct- 2morrow got sci paper n sej nia, scare. Slp early, nites, sweet dreams.
7th Oct-Miss me? xD don think ardy la, go slp la. Nite, sweet dreams.
8th Oct-wei, now go slp,nite, meet you in dreams(:
9th Oct- c finsh my blog? okeys, time go slp. Nite, sweet dreams.
10th Oct-2morrow having exam again. so Nites, sweet dreams.
11th Oct- 2morrow having math n kh. Wish my luck, nite, sweet dreams.
12th Oct- no ned c my blog ardy la. i will b smsing you ardy xD

^ is for if i scare i nvr tell you, so i tell you here early 1st o. i will b vry free aft 12th Oct, but yr exam is cuming so no matter i nvr sms you or find you i also will b supporting you, don b lazy to study ar, don kap luii ar, if not you sure kena coz you waste yr time kap-ing luii so study o, okeys? If i can i will try to wish you 'nite' everyday (: i will b ok, don worry, i won lose to my 'pressure' xD n rmb 'i'm ying qiu leh' so? no worries :] Got anything sms me la(:

Monday.

2day woke up at 7am don feel like going to school, coz i'm really vry tired, but i juz tahan it n go to school. Reach school tat time was quite late start perhimpuan ardy but i juz walk into my line n juz sit down lo. After perhimpuan, juz as usual bak to class. Back to class den study by myself coz teacher nvr come, after the 2nd period-Geo only got teacher comes in to teach. Whole day concentrating on my studies, but feel vry tired, i juz kept telling myself 'don slp, focus' like tis until after school lo. Usually after school is my fren-siuen's mum or dad fetch me bak de, n i wan go striaght go bak bath den slp ardy, but siuen suddenly tell me she wan attend the Geo class tambahan, so i juz continuing telling myself 'got ppl teach den go learn, n b focus' In the Geo Class tambahan i was really vry tired wanted to slp, but i noe tat if i slp i sure miss 1 part de, so i juz force myself not to slp n b more concentrate. 2:15pm finshed the class den siuen tells me tat ned wait for her biao ge to fetch coz her parents go n c doctor. Then siuen tell me tat ned to wait for her biao mei to finsh school 1st den her biao ge all fetch together. Tat time we havnot eat lunch so we go matahari eat together wif dai lou n ah bhan lo. But bcoz at home my mum cook for me ardy, so i juz watch them eat n juz eat 1 bread tats all. Almost 3pm my fren suddenly tell me tat kit yew tat gang cum ardy, so i juz look 1 eye n juz act dono. 3:30pm den only her biao ge can fetch us home, den b4 i go back i juz passby kit yew n juz like normal fren saying 'bye bye', when i walk there he was vry paiseh n look down until i walk in front of him den only he looks up den i juz say 'bye' den i go le lo. When i reach home almost 4pm ardy i wanted to check my eye today, so i quickly eat n ask my mum to fetch me to c my eye. After testing my eye the optic said tat my eye side drop ardy, i was like stun ardy, coz actually every year i should go to check de n bcoz i scare i increase den it will affect my PMR , but tis time i go after 3 years, it should increase but it DROP ardy. Lol.
After going bak home i juz feel like going to slp until 2morrow morning, but i'm still now here typing my blog xD
[2day havnot reload yet, so zhu zaii sms me i cant reply, kit yew missed call me more than 4 times ardy xD]

Feel like going to slp, tired. But mayb not, i mayb study until nite only slp bah. i dono i can tahan mou from morning until nite nia @.@

2 in 1 xD

~25th Sept

2day in school felt bored bcuz all those school teachers was not teaching. =.='
sien nia, juz go to school study sci lur, whole day juz 2 teacher teach nia.
Today 8am in school i feel like studying wif zhu zaii after school so i sms him c whether he woke up ardy anot lur. After 5 min he replyed me, den i juz ask him lur. tat time bcuz i'm not so sure so i juz ask him c he is free anot in tat time lur. After school my mum fetch me bak home tat time was almost 2 ardy bcuz i hav lunch wif her, so i quickly call zhu zaii to confirm abt tat 'date' xD but he didn't replyed me, so i tot he was busy so i juz lie down at my bed n wait for him to reply, den i suddenly feel like i vry kacau, so i sms him again n said tat cancel ardy lur. Den he suddenly ask me to call him den i juz follow wat he say n juz call him lur, he said he can go, he cancel his 'game'. den tat time i was kinda tired so i tell him i'm vry tired wanna take a nap. den he sounds like vry disappointed, so i juz like tam him abit in phone lo. After he phone den i go straight to slp, n i tell him tat if i wake up ardy only sms him. i wake up at almost 4:30pm den i sms him c whether he wants to come out mou lo, but he nvr answer my call, so i juz act tat i 4get abt wat i ask him lo. Den he replyed me almost 2 hours later nia, tat time i was doing my math. He ask me to call him again. so i juz do wat he say n juz call him lur. He said tat he is doing acupuncture,so i juz 4get abt at lur. but he sounds like quite disappointed again, den i juz like tam him awhile lur. aft tat we juz chat at skype til almost 2:30am, in tat chat we laugh n we cry. Bcuz of kar hoe 1 word makes me feel vry luan, he said tat he was not a gud guy, tat means zhu zaii de not those person were that can trust, den i juz suddenly cry coz i feel like i kena ppl ply. Den from the skype phone he heard ardy n he try his best to make me trust him back n he also cried too. End up, we two also cry n we stop crying together too. We juz like chat til 2:30am, tat time i noe i should slp early bcuz i hav seminar at 7:30am to attend n i ned to b vry focus on wat they tell us, but i dono y i juz don feel like stop chatting wif him, juz feel like listening his sound til i slp, n also bcuz i wanna dream abt him.

~26th Sept
After we finsh i juz back to slp until morning i woke up late n i almost miss the bus n kena teacher scold bcuz i was vry vry late. n i went in the bus kena scolded my fren, siuen, coz yesterday she ask me to fetch her to school, but bcuz i'm late ardy, the bus go at 7:30am we should b there at 7:20am to wait for the bus, but i 7:30am only reach, so my fren find her own transport n scold me again lo. But slowly 4got ardy, in bus feel sleepy + the bus goes vry bummy, so makes me feel not really well. We reach ther almost 8am, when we reach there we ardy saw alot buses n alot for student. Then we juz follow all those student there they go n we still to walk up the small hill only reach the place. When they reach, there was full of ppl, n got leng zaii tim xD [but i juz c 1 eye only, cuz i promiss zhu zaii don kap zaii ardy]. We line up to pay the ticket[RM68] in n they giv 1 book. After that we went in to find place to sit but tat time we go in is ardy almost full, so we juz try to find a place tat my frens n i can sit together de, lucky we find dou la. While waiting for them to start, alot of diffren school also came to tis seminal n they also kept find place to sit. They start at almost 10:30pm, 1st subject is BM den Geo follow by Sci den we hav a break[lunch] den continue Math,English last is Sejarah , every subject i juz kept focusing on wat they giv n wat they teach. But then they giv resting time my mind was like totally tired man..
It was finsh at 6pm but bcuz we go back by bus so we ned time find our bus to go bak n it takes sometime tim. After we found ardy den we juz go bak lo. We reach bsd almost at 6:35pm, my mum was waiting for me at school, on the way bak home my mum ask 'how was it?' den i juz answer 'i'm now totally exhausted.' When i go bak home i juz on9 c zhu zaii got on9 anot lo, at 1st i tell my mum i don wan go out eat ask her help me da bao, den she tam me tam until i go out eat dinner lo, so we hav dinner at club. After the dinner when we reach home Then my mum ask me to massage for her so i juz do wat she say. Finsh ardy den bak to pc to post tis blog lur. (:
Whole day nvr sms zhu zaii, coz phone expired ardy. Haiz..

-END OF 25TH N 26TH-

24 sept..

2day is 24th Sept, dono y feel like somethings havnot done, isit asking him 'do you rmb tis day?' But, mayb i really ned to forget abt it, in juz walk in font, don look back.

2day in school were quite fun, but normal, n kit yew come n find me wif his frens, dono y. Juz chat abt like 'y you don go back yet?' 'wat time you go back?' 'wan exam ardy, got study mou?' I really tot he juz wanna ask abt all tis, but when i go back, he say he wanted to ask his main point but i don feel like talking to him wo. Sot sot de la xD

2day zhu zaii come to my hse to eat lunch wif me(: we cooked noodle n eat wif fishball n egg xD He fried those fishballs n egg but fried until i wan laugh ardy, bec he fried until out of shape ardy xD
End up, but we still eat n the noodle i made was kinda salty, n we still eat xD After eating we juz chat around my room. Chatting abt funny things n sad things n 'chi cu' things [for him la] n serious things ...many many more(:
When he talk wif his real heart he don dare to look at me nia xD say ps wo, hahax! but he said those words i don belive n he almost cry T.T so i giv a kiss on his cheek to cheer him up(:

but end up, he giv me back a kiss on my cheek. [i 4got wat happen ardy] he suddenly close to me n our nose touch each other, makes me feel like kissing him, but so too, FAIL ardy xD
After tat he knows ardy n tell me 'hahax! i noe ardy, i noe ardy' i was juz look outside n say you feel wrong jor la xD den [i 4got again] tis time he kiss me on my lips, n i was like stun ardy. totally in blur ardy. after the kiss i juz act dono n kinda ps xD
4pm...he needs to go back bec my ah ma will be bak on anytime, so i ask him 'you wan go ardy anot? 4pm ardy lo' den he like vry angry n say 'ok lo, you wan me go i ma go lo' den we juz go down n i open the gates n door for him. Tat time outside was raining, so i shelter him to his car n he still looks disappointed. So i take a deep breath n kiss him on his cheek again (: , den he was like still angry n ask 'only like tis o?' den i answer him 'wat do you still wan?' den he 'zhu dong' kiss on my lips the 2nd time..den i close his car door n say 'bye, drive safely' den i slowly walk back to my hse n close all those gates n door lo.

' Do i likes you? ' tis question is juz kept repeating in my mind. ' Should i like you? ' ' Accept or reject? ' all these question is my blockage toward him..lol, now i juz kept tao bi-ing.

Feel like posting again den only post la(:
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2nd post on the same day xD

lol, suddenly feel like posting sumthings. today n yesterday i was late to school, yesterday the perhimpuan also end ardy den i only reach to schoool, today is kinda late abit but still ok la xD
At school nth really happen, juz like normal... only on class bm-pn. azlina kept saying abt Jing Hui's bad word. Say that he likes to meronda wif his gf-wen yun. tat time he damn bek chek lo xD
in school juz like in a pressure cooking. teacher kept on giving paper to do, n we juz kept doing non stop. walau, totally tired man.. after PMR i'm not gonna touch all those books ardy, they will be totally out from my mind, and i will just play n play n play for the whole day nia xD

yesterday nite in phone wif zhu zaii, saying abt my 'saved msg' n he past were i saw in his blog. N talking abt our 1st kiss nia xD n we were talking abt 'is zhu zaii a play boy?' i feel really sorry, bcoz i tell him i don trusted him, n kept thinking tat he's a play boy. N he was damn hurt n almost T.T, i dono how to change my mind set to act him is juz a guy tat will love you deep inside his heart, i'm now trying ardy, hope you r not really a play boy. we talk from almost 12 til 2:30am nia, my ear gonna deaf ardy, i kept delay the time tat he limited dono y xD
Mayb i 'mm seh dak' gua, i'm not sure xD *tao bi-ing*

Today saw zhu zaii's blog again, he kept saying he miss me, but i kept laughing, coz he is like nvr c me 1 min ardy vry miss,hahax! i kept laughing nia, we juz meet 2 days ago, cant imagine how he miss til so deeply xD
Now in my conversation wif others don hav ham de things ardy, zhu zaii is the 1 slowly take over. Sumtimes talking wif my mum, den i say abt him, sumtimes talking wif my fren talking abt him, dono y again xD
Dono i really fall in love wif him jor isit, i juz don dare to face it. He tried to makes me face it, but i juz kept 'tao bi'. Dono y AGAIN..@.@

My hmwk is really damn lot nia, lucky sumtimes zhu zaii can help me in tat xD if not i will b like a dead person ardy. 2day kit yew sms me again, n he kept calling kay sieng to ask my personal things, but i try to tell kay sieng not to tell him abt zhu zaii, coz i don wan him to b vry disappointed, n coz he likes me for almost 1year++ ardy. Yes i noe him longer den zhu zaii, but feel all tis is juz like test you how you can really catch a gul heart anot de ma, mayb he ben dan catch mm dou my heart gua xD but tat zhu zaii also not really touch dou deep inside la, now is touch dou but is juz 3 layer in,hahax!

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dono wat i wan>

yesterday i 2:30am only slp,aw..kinda tired-.-! coz talk in phone wif zhu zaii xD

2day jia wen ask me ' qiu, you ask zhi hao 22th n 23th oct wan go genting mou, coz i wan c him ' den i was like stun awhile den say 'okok, i ask him ardy den i tell you ^^' den when i go off suddenly feel like tat i'm like 'kacau' 1s. vry luan nia, i dono wat time wan, i juz always noe how to tao bi. haiz.....don feel like think abt tat, makes me feel vry luan nia. don feel like post anything, ltr got somethings else only i post again la(:

ON BAK! XD

1,2,3,4,5,6,7..tis is time 7th time i cum out wif zhu zaii. having date?? *vomiting* we havnot couple yet la=.=' i kept reminding myself, i'm still not his gf, don b too over do..reminding..reminding..reminding..kept reminding myself.

7th time-tis time i asked him out, bcoz the day b4 he saw in a bad mood, but tat time i cant cum out so i ask him for tomorrow. tis time we hav our dinner together by eat steamboat at 'our old place'. i ask him to fetch me at 5:30pm but he was LATE! i wanted to angry him,but when i get into the car seems tat the 1 in bad mood was him n is not me. so i juz act nth n ask him y...? den he answer me in a lie n end up he tell me he was joking nia, n i was like, omg, i should angry you 1st nia.
on the way we were in a jam so we reached there abt 6pm. we walk around the garden n the 'bigg' supermarket too=.= while walking we were juz chatting n laughing. n i rmb 1 is tat when i tell him tat guy ply bball was vry lc den zhu zaii shout at him n say 'OI!' omg, i look at tat guy i quickly act dono nia xD we walk almost the whole park, walau, it was really damn BIGG, until is like walk n walk also don hav end like tis de?? =.= but b4 walk finsh, i ask him to giv me his phone,n i start to record my sound 'wei! answer my phone leh, i'm ying qiu leh. ANSWER MY PHONE!! if you don answer i don call you ardy n you no ned to call me ardy'. i did tis bcoz got 1 time i called him but he nvr answer my phone den i was vry 'gek' so i wanted him to answer my phone when i call him. wkaka xD to tell him tat if you don answer my phone you will die,wkaka xD
i think tat time is 7:15 pm like tis, we hav dinner lur. we were chatting chatting chatting..n eating eating eating..tat time i'm a rush to tuition at in BSD so i ask him to eat it fast xD tat dinner cost abt rm40+ =.=' walau, i think he bo money liao lo, every time also eat like tis sure bankrupt de lo. aft eating he fetch me tuition straight away.
when we reach to my tuition centre, i wanted to cum down from the car suddenly he pull me bak n said 'i wan bao bao' in a acting cute face xD den i was 'aw.....ok la' den we hug quite a long time coz i don wanna let go,dono y xD n when i let go he kissed me at my cheek n said 'me leh??' den i think for awhile den i only giv him a kiss at his cheek too. den juz bak to normal, i juz cum down from the car n tell him 'bye bye'. when i'm in class tat i noe i was late 10minutes ardy, n in class tat 1st 10 minutes i kept stun n unfocus coz kept thinking abt tat zhu zaii. but slowly bak to my mood n try to tell myself to b more concentrate(:
*i mayb he c him again aft 3 weeks, n in tat 3 week is can safe bak his money la, but i think aft tat 3 weeks if cum out again sure use finish also de xD

In school, wanted to on9 coz i bring phone but my school's wi-fi lau beh de la=.= n today tat sieng angry again, aiyo, must b tat jing hui n rick bully her again lo, but everytime she been bully sure call me help her geh xD but i always only say 'Jing Hui/Rick ar, don bully her la, sit bak to yr place la' xD n today rick wanted me to help him to ask liyan to go to his bday party at 1st of dec wo, he ply my fren-liyan b4 still wan me to help him ar? choi nei dou soh ar, ply my fren la, 1 leg step 2 boat la, dai sei, you wan ask her go ask yrself, don kept tell me you change ardy, nvr b ply boy ardy. tell me no use de, is c liyan believe anot, if you got heart den you should call her or find her out face to face tell her.

okeys, lazy type ardy, bak to study lo. +u +u, got time post again la:]

nEw LifE

Almost 1 month nvr post anythings ardy, sorry. What happen in tis 1 month?

-Ham-

You slowly get away from my mind ardy, mayb i can say tat, you stay 10% in my mind ardy, but i believe tat i will totally forgot you, n i will b myself 'playful' again. Think back...you changed me alot lot lot, n i couldn't count. For example: the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i'm happy, the way i'm angry, the way i study, the way i was playful, the way i was childish, the way i 7 xin..n more. You change me to bcum totally different like i bcum yr Barbie, when you want my love i giv you, when you wan me i giv you my time, when you wan me to bcum totally girl type i force myself to b. But when i needs you, you r always not there for me. Be in front of you i'm vry tired to change to another person, if you don like the way i usually do, den deep inside you heart. Whats makes you love me? don tell me coz you know i will b yr Barbie? =.='

>When i was sad, wanted you to support, you r not there for me.

>When i was happy, wanted to share to you, you r not there for me.

>When i was bored, wanted you to company, you r not there for me.

>When i was hurt, wanted you to care abt it, you r not there for me.

>When i was sick, wanted you to ngam or at least send 1 msg to tell me wat i should do, you r not there for me.

>When i was angry, wanted you to cool me down, you r not there for me.

>When i was lonely, wanted you to b wif me, you r not there for me.

>When i'm under pressure, wanted you to gives some entertainment, you r not there for me.

>When i miss you, wanted to see you, you r not there for me.

If you choose tis way to treat me as yr gf or the 1 you still love like tis, i need you to tell you 'i'm sorry, i stand it for 1 year ardy, i'm tired'

-Fei Zhu Zaii-

We meet the 1st time is on my bday[3rd Sept]. Tat time we don really know each other but we still can talk n chat. Jia wen love tis guy, n we can meet is bcoz of Jia wen, she wanted to see him closely n to know him more.

>1st time: Tis 'meet' was Jia wen's idea. We were still like normal frens, can talk can sot can laugh, n jia wen likes him even more from tis '1st meet'. ~at mcd~ *3rd sept

>2nd time: Tis time is [fei zhu zaii] asked me wanna go out to eat ice cream, den i ask Jia Wen do she wan? she quickly agree tat she is free whr actually she got class. Its prove tat, Jia Wen really likes him. ~at papa's rich~ *6th sept

>3rd time: Tis time was at nite, [fei zhu zaii] wanted to hav dinner den i called Jia Wen too. at 1st she can but bcoz her mum suddenly disagree go i juz go wif [fei zhu zaii] to hav dinner together. We were quite fun, but coz limited time so we juz chat a little bit abt our frens. ~at pizza hut~ *11th sept

>4th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out to hav lunch together n we eat n walk at 'our old place' xD we were quite fun,we were like soh lou n soh po xD but in tis outing i feel sum funny funny feeling. den i ask him 'you like me ar?' den he ans 'no ar' den i said 'mayb i feel wrong jor bah'. den i juz 4get abt it. but nite time sumthing happen...... ~at dpc~ *15th sept

>5th time: [fei zhu zaii] ask me out again to study(: he helps me on my hmwk n on my math, we were like normal studying. n he kept saying tat 'i hate you' den i write on his hand 'you hate me?'. the whole day he say kept saying 'i hate you', hahax! lol. tis outing i also hav limited time again only so we don really study or ply much. ~at mcd~ *17th sept

>6th time: Tis time we were in the morning, my mum ask me to go for jogging, to let the toxic out from my body, at the same time [fei zhu zaii] call me out to jog too, so i decide to go wif him. Early in the morning almost 8am we reached there [our old place] den we start to jog while plying n chatting. We were also quite fun, n there got leng lui leng zai tim. But b4 we when of he 'bei' me tat time all those ppl were looking at us n those leng zaii too. Therefore i nvr kap zai lo, n cannot kap zaii ardy xD *kap too much also no gud de* aft the jog we when for breakfast at aman puri, juz chatting. Aft tat he fetch me bak. B4 i cum down from he car, i told him sumthings, den we hav a great bigg hug(: ~at dpc n papa's rich~ *18th sept

I dono how to describe wat i feel, i only know tat, Jia wen likes him n he likes ... Jia wen is my fren, mayb is still not the rite time yet.

-My life-

my life now? Full of stress..but lucky still got sum 'fun' time xD Hope tat wat i study helps in my exam=3=

THE END!

miss you miss you..

8th day you nvr sms or call me ardy. tis few days i'm in blur cos thinking of you nia. lol==

what will you do?

if i tell you i start 2 dui sum1 got feel d, wat will you do? you will take me away from tat guy? or juz c me go? i tot i only dui you got feel but i think i start to let go bec you nvr help yrself. i dono wat will happen. i think the day will cum , and i dono wat will you do.
our relationship is really complicated, all kind of couple stuff we got like : call 'laopo', miss you, love you, kiss you, lie on yr back, n vry care abt the other's stuff tat happen. we only nvr hug, real kiss, in front of ppl said tat we couple. we noe we like each other. but mayb we don amid it only.
but if mayb 1 day he ask for couple, mayb i will ask him 2 wait. coz i ned 2 think is he now wat the thing i wan? but now i won think abt it coz i noe tat day won b cuming. nvm, but now i'm juz focuses ing on my studies :]

bored.

don wan post jor ned study, free only post again la xD