Unusual day♥

Yesterday kit yew called me. i tot he giv up chasing me d, so i juz answered his call. Wau! n just 1 call he tell me alot of things tat he knows abt me. my god! i think so he stalked me! he knows those things not many ppl know n i don really tell ppl. n he ask things like 'nowaday you n ubi quite close ar?' den i say 'har?! how you know?' coz i seldom c ubi n him walk together. den i say 'coz he own me money' then he say 'yea, i know ar. y he own you money? n the money is to buy con rite?' den i say 'har?! how you know?!! you STALKED me?!' den he juz laugh n say 'aiyo, i pro ma.' den he also ask things like 'you want to change school mie? y you want to study sci stream o?' den i ask him 'wa, i want to change school you also know ar?!!' n i never tell any1 in his gang, coz i'm not confirm yet. den he say 'you want change to bsd2 ar? want mie?' den i ask him again 'wa! i want to change to bsd2 also know d ar?! if cannot change to bsd2 den change to kepong there' den he ask 'you want to change to maluri school mie? vry far leh, want change den change to near near la. y yr year don hav sub sci de?' den i said 'haiz..this school wan close sub sci also no choice d.' den i ask him again 'wa! you stalk me stalk until quite clear n things goes vry fast ma' den he say 'i pro ma!' den he pui me blow water awhile lo + ask alot more other questions tat to make sure his 'wind' was right. damn LOL lo. after that around 9:55pm he kept ask me to go to sleep, n ask to don be late 2morrow coz everyday i'm late d. den i ask him again, 'har?! how you know everyday i'm late?!' den he say 'n yesterday i saw you under the rain walking wif a book on top of yr head, aiyo, wanted to take a umbrella for you tim' den i say 'wa! like tat also know ar?! aiyo, no ned la, small rain.' den i know i want to sleep d so i juz tell him i want to sleep d, den he only close the phone lo. after that i sms-ed my dar. n wanted to tell him wat kit yew tell me just now in phone, but he seems to be quite busy so i decided to tell him later bah,so we just talk awhile n i think was only 2min n 03sec n when i close was 10pm sharp, so i juz go to sleep after the phone lo.

Today late to school AGAIN. LOL. but 1st class was PJK so no worries :] but the 2nd period was sej=.=' haiz, face tat indian teacher saying for the whole day, suddenly amanda send alicia a msg saying tat got spotcheck n juz check finish her class, but she lucky nvr find dou her phone, then alicia n I was damn scare then we start to think how to go out n put it in the locker, so i ask alicia to sms her tat ask her to come out to give us the locker key, den she say she cant come out from the class den alicia n I start to be more scare.. den i juz tell alicia to giv kit yew 1st, but tat time was tat indian teacher damn straight de lo, she don dare to tell teacher tat she want to go to the 'toilet' so i juz say, ok den now you giv me yr phone i go out la. so she just do wat i say. when i walk out the class i nvr saw any pengawas spotcheck-ing, but i don care juz walk to form5. Unlucky was kit yew class got teacher, so i juz walk to toilet n c who i can giv to. Then i saw a girl name ee quan, in form 5 de, so i juz giv her n so ngam she was in 5gigih [i'm in 4 gigih]. so i juz trust her n giv it to her + tell her wat happen, then i juz walk back to class. After the sej period [mean the 3rd period] alicia suddenly say she wants to go to toilet, so i pui her go again lo. again so ngam c dou tat ee quan go toilet again toooo. xD so she say tat she go n ask her fren also pengawas de wat happen. is bec amanda class got ppl bring cigarettes so only their class got spot check. we know d, den we just take back our phone not to ma fan her ma. so we juz go bak to class lo, tat time ekonomi period, n we was abit late, but en. vicky nvr scold :]

den recess time angel told us her phone kena check i only know got two class kena spotcheck. few ppl's phone kena rampas. cham cham cham..haiz.. den angel of coz is vry bu suang la, if me also not happy lo, start school only the 5th day den kena rampas. haiz..hope she mum won scold her la. after recess was account, was pn. WONG! damn it! she use 1 whole period to say abt her rules, waste time! n she says my FULL NAME 2 TIMES + 1 time saying abt me but vry mention my name out! n i m the only girl she kept saying abt my BAD things. my god！i HATE when she calls my FULL NAME! the 1st time she call was she said tat she don wan girls hair like TAN YING QIU wo! walau, i pin up so good she still wan say o! den whole class looking at me n i juz say 'EN!' without doing any action.then she say if 'you don wan to follow my rules den don study in my class.go for other class like SCI or ART' *in a lc way, n she was telling me* den i answer her "yea, i'm applying for SCI STREAM d" den she vry paiseh n say 'en..en..' the 3rd time was, she say she don wan to c any 1 wearing bangles, rings, n more than two ear rings, n tat two ear ring must be the lower part of the two ear wo, den she say not like TAN YING QIU o! den everyone look at me, n i answer her loudly [coz i sit behind] "i never poke anythings! i never pierces any hole at my ear, a single hole also don hav!" *i kept showing her my ear* den she vry paiseh n say 'en' den i juz feel she also vry paiseh d, so don make she so hard to do lo. den she go n say 1 girl that was my fren n not really really close n ask her, 'y you only pierce 1 ear?' den she said 'another earing drop d' in a vry 'wai wat' sound. den the teacher ask 'when did you drop it?' den she said she dono. den pn. WONG said 'if another 1 drop d, then the other 1 DON WEAR!' wa! i hear jor i felt vry beh song for her lo, coz drop jor also not her fault ma + wear 1 only got wrong mie? haiz.......cham lo, if i don change class or change school i ned to face her for 2 years! my god! haiz........ no choice la, her class be GUAI LUII la.
after account class den is chinese 3 period until 1:40pm. T.T others can go back at 12:35pm but vry need to stay til 1:40pm. aiyoyo! but nvm la, i still can la. this school change damn lot or i change to be more bad d? y i like vry hard to be guai luii in this school leh? aiyo. don care la, i juz want my study to improve thats all, others like DEMARID? don care! xD alot ma alot lo, i'm trying to be guai luii d like tat also wan catch mie? aiyo.

after that sieng n ko sin wait for me while i'm in chinese class. while waiting for me, i ask them to tell me buy the hair colour thing n ask them to hav lunch 1st. coz yesterday i play a bottle for hair colour tat my fren gave it to me n ask to to try isit effective anot. my god! i colour until damn obvious under the sunlight was GOLD colour! so no choice ned to colour back so they help me to buy the thing n colour it back for me in my hse [my hse got no 1 from 2pm to 5pm]. n kay sieng want my previous colour, so ko sin n I use the colour tat they buy in watsons n kay sieng use my previous 1. the colour they buy was brown not too dark n not too bright. we colour for each other n waited for 35min den take turn to wash. it was damn fun! n i tell them i will rmb this day was we tou tou colour our hair, next time when we grown up we hav not chance to play like tat d, den they agree wif tat n we kept laughing around. then after that around 4:30pm they need to go back d, so i juz pui them out den kay sieng saw my hair n say 'wa! ying qiu!' *pointing at my hair n looking at ko sin* ko sin also say 'wa!' den i say 'y? wat happen to my hair?' then she say 'wa! yr hair under the sunlight like got many colour!' den i ask 'wat colour?! not brown only mie?' den she say 'got abit dark gold + alot red colour!' den i was like 'damn!' wat colour also got jo lo. den i don care n say 'weih, today damn fun leh weih, next time we change to PURPLE!' den kay sieng n ko sin say 'OK! next time we colour PURPLE' after tat they go back d lo. so that the end for today :] tata! :]

-kept a smile on your face-

Haha. back now :]

aw.......damn alots of thing to say in here, but too sad, 80% i hav 4goten xD

today was the 4th day of school-ing day, this week totally no mood to study, dono y. But maybe next week got bah. today don really study in school coz no teacher came in expect for eng teacher [christina]. in her class must be vry discipline but i trust tat she can help me in my eng. other period , alicia , jun kit , ming chou n I play alot of childish games but tat time really bored n nth to do, so just join them. we played games like BINGO, TIK TAG TO n a game name counting the frogs. we played almost de whole day n we were laughing loudly around the end there. alicia kept saying COLD~~ coz today was a rainy day, i felt cold too, but not cold til kept saying cold la, is just makes me feel like SLEEPING~~
n today our school hav mesuarat agong for our rumah sukan, so kay sieng, ko sin, alicia, rick, jing hui, noma, ryan n i hanging around n dono wat rumah we wan to go, end up kena scold by teacher den we juz say we were going to 'green group' but we went there was full of ppl, so we change n say go 'yellow team' so we go in there n juz sit at the end there. we chat loudly n laugh loudly makes teacher say us many times. after that my dad juz fetch me home. reach home 1st thing was EAT! den sit infront of laptop d xD den around 5pm like tat only start to kept those clothes in n bath :]
Today i suddenly think abt my dar. n i those funny n sweet thing tat happens. like the 1st day we meet was DAII GOU SUII the fake cherry! den i was so playful that simply play his staring. when slowly den funny feeling cames........ den 9th nov 2010 COUPLE lo :]
i gave him lots of stuff, i don think so i can rmb all. but nowaday less d, coz BANKRUP d, paiseh paiseh. but if gott i will start me shopping AGAIN. miss his guai zaii's look, miss his biggg laugh, miss his jokes.......long time nvr c d. he change alittle little bit d, more lala d, start to be abit bad d, don really smile more...really hope tat his heart will never change, n i TRUST him♥

everyone will change, so do I. i won expect him to change bcoz wat i want to, but the only thing he nvr change is...... his cuteness n he still stays tat special in there.♥

all our SWEET MEMORIES ♥

-went to his hse, n YUKI wanted tat bear tat i gave dar.

-our couple ring.

-my dar. acting cute xD

-skype-ing

-eating sushii in Times squre :]

-my bday :]

-on 3D glasses

-went to his hse played wif YUKI

-tat time my pmr exam was coming d, so i went to his hse to study :]

-webcam-ing

-my leng zaii dar. xD [he dono abt tis]

a HAPPY NEW YEAR to myself.

countdown? at home all alone..my dar said he will call me but abit bit late, so juz open my window n look outside telling myself happy new year, 2011!! my mum don let me out, no choice..so..alone lo, kekex.!

but....use to it le...no feeling d. So wish everyone a good start for 2011 n myself too.

*i miss him every min start from 11pm til now, my heartbeat goes damn fast..*

To a person that really really important to me (Zhu Zaii)

Piggie, i'm going TAIWAN tomorrow n i open yr present d, i was really really touch n if you'r infront of me i will hugg you as tight as i really could. B4 i open i was vry worry abt you when i'm not here, n now i get more worry abt you since i start to read yr letter. You better take k abt yourself ar.

1. DON eat soo much fried or spice things in a day.
2. DRINK at least 3 bottle a day. (no matter isit a hot day anot)
   
3. DON go out wif fren til midnite only go back n sleep. (juz do it if you can)
   
4. DON face too long hours on yr laptop.
5. try to sleep EARLY every night.
6. DON kap luii when i'm not here. *important*
   
7. DON be unhappy or emo abt how yr family treat you.
8. think more POSITIVE abt everything.
9. when you'r unhappy or angry you can send me a e-mail, i will reply you when i'm on9.
10. DON skip any meal per day.
11. DON feel alone when i'm not here, bcoz you got my bear bside you :]
    
12. DON always drive so fast when you r in a rush or no mood.
13. when i'm in TAIWAN, send me a dariy of your day using e-mail-ing me.
14. anything happen to you IMMEDIATELY, tell me. (you can use any way)
15. the 15th 1 is i promise you that i will say I LOVE YOU in a day, i will try to tell you everyday, n you ned to wait for me :]

rmb, what the RING said, i really mean it.

I.L.Y.N.I.M.Y.

few weeks b4..

Wau..damn long nvr post ardy. dono wat time post leh. today bak from work den upload few pic to facebook *my curly hair* xD got free den go c bah :]

This few days i think alot of things b4 i slp..if i think of zhu zaii starts to hav lots of negative things. Makes me think lot. I know sometimes i ned to trust him, but his action makes me feel tat actually i'm juz a not really tat diffren then the others. I almost cry every night but lucky not. juz drop few tears b4 slp, it was damn pain until no feeling d. i admit tat i'm a girl tat likes to cry, but i'm not tat girl tat can cry soo easy. unless they were a person tat were diffren than the others. N i know tat wat kinda gf he wants. But i juz try my best d + i know tat leng zaii wif leng luii couple sure vry good de, but i'm really sorry abt tis, i know i'm not the leng luii n i don wan to be to leng luii, bcoz if i hav a supper leng zaii bf i will be worrying everynite, would he find another girl or wat? i juz want a bf tat would make my life diffren wif him. I know tat i'm working now, i don hav time to company him, but i'm ardy tried my best d, i also wanted a fren tat can company you when i'm working, but.. deep in my heart felt i'm nth. my time was always fully book, 1 day he will argue wif me abt tis, n we can do nth abt tis. But i alrealy know tat day will b cuming only dono when isit. At last, i can only say tat, i love him deeper n deeper, a person went into my heart is really hard but once you'r in you can hurt me as easy as you juz open a pipe.

Went outing wif zhu zaii

17th Nov 2010 zhu zaii n i went outing together at DPC from abt 6pm+ (alomost 7pm) to around 9:45pm we went there to eat dinner together n walk walk lo :]
While we were eating we saw ke wen n her 2 fren n her bf n zhun hua n yu chuan at DPC too. zhu zaii n we were sweet too ya :]
but we also got abit 7 xin, coz tat zhu zaii kept dancing n playing around xD

the standing up (left) is me n the sitting down (right) is zhu zaii lo :]
My hand kena cut kept bleeding n tat plaster was zhu zaii's 1 XD *the ring n all the bangles zhu zaii also got xD
Dono when take ardy, my perasan pic xD *the watch from the pic at right hand zhu zaii also got. We got alot lot couple things leh xD

dono y feel like posting a bloggie.

now feel smiling outside pain inside. Zhu zaii n i starts to have some problem, n all those problem is bcoz of me. I admit tat all those problem is bcoz of me, i'm sorry. maybe i'm the 1 he likes la, but until now i dono wat he likes from me. everythings tat i hav done he also don really likes, so i still left which 1 tat he likes? sometimes really funny la, ok, i know tat sometimes i'm crazy, den he likes me when i'm crazy, but i'm not crazy all the time wo. so how? i feel tat sumtimes he likes all those girl vry shu nv type de, but i don really think tat he will likes it, coz bcoz tis kinda girl, he will feels tat i'm not zhu dong enough, or he will feels tat everything i think i don dare to say out, or he will feels tat wif me vry boring coz i'm too girl type ardy, or he will feels tat i don really likes him after all, i can be tat shu nv type, but will he likes it? who knows? maybe i will start to try being shu nv again, den c wats he said bah, i also dono wat he really likes from me. Sometimes i think vry negative something tat when he say out his problem abt me i will feel tat when we were just friends we will hav fun together, but when we couple problems start to come out, don hav tat FUN anymore, y not just be friends? juz tou tou an lian each other lo. But i'm too selfish ardy, coz i don wan to let others got chance n i wan him to be mine so i don wan him to leave me, n he leave me maybe i will suffer again? haiz, all tis also bcoz wat i wan, i don dare to ask him do he still wan to couple if is like tis, coz i really scare to hear tat he regret couple wif me, i don wan him to leave me, tis is my big big problem! DON DARE TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH! When everytimes he tells me tat he loves me, i really hope tat is really from his heart n not juz say for MUST, coz every single word of a guy tat i love saying 'I LOVE YOU' it really changes me or it really touch me. Tis is my big weakness nia @.@
But i really hope tat we won be like start being cold each other, coz i know end up is juz 1 ending call BREAK UP.

ok, after the refresh better ardy, stop crying ardy :]
you know when do zhu zaii n i pak toh ma? 9th nov 10:02pm at genting leh, 9 is my lucky number, n our time is like 9,10,11 - 9 for 9th, 10 for 10pm n 11 for Nov. Very...funny ho? kekex, maybe is god set up jor bah. xD
being juz a normal girl is also hard sumtimes, so i wan to be diffren than the others, especially in his heart. sumtimes i know tat my emotion really too over jor, but i dare to show out infront of a guy tat i love really daring jor, coz i know myself, i don dare to show my bad mood or unhappy mood to sum1 i love, but not for zhu zaii leh, i dare to show infront of him n i let him tam me when i'm not happy leh, tis 1 really let me know tat showing a expression to a guy i love is just tat easy n i no ned to hide anymore, coz last time i sad i always gao tim myself de, don wan my bf to tam me until i happy de, but too sad is, my emotion makes zhu zaii feel sad wo, so should i use back my way leh? hahax! my big big problem AGAIN.. xD
ok la, maybe tell him bah, but don show infront of him lo,kekex, like tat he won be sad lo :]
But nowadays i don get his heart n he don get my heart ardy, dono y leh xD
*i also dono wat my heart really wan also*
juz now i said tat 'refresh' means tat i go eat sumthings xD n 1st time when i think of zhu zaii i feel pain n sour in my heart same as i felt for ham, i don wan tat to happen again leh, i juz wan tat when i think of him, i feel like laughing or i giv myself a smile. Maybe i tat time still vry NEGATIVE bah xD
No matter wat happen to us, i still also love zhu zaii the only 1, kekex ^^

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went bak early today. so free to post a bloggie :]

-9th nov-
tat day i went to genting wif sieng n qian, but zhu nvr go coz he got class. so we went by vry early abt 10am++ reach there. den we meet sieng's bf-ah lun n his frens, den we juz walk around 2gether 1st lo. aiyo, lazy type abt wat i play there, say abt zhu zaii bah xD
at around 6pm zhu zaii suddenly called me, n ask me whr m i, n he said tat he was really sad tat he could not come to genting n said he was in 1u wif frens. but suddenly he appear infront of at 'da ji chang' i was like stun ardy, n ask, y r you here? n in tat moment my mind was all in blank n touch too. coz he wei le me come up to genting. den we hav dinner together n wif sieng too, coz sieng wif her bf chao jia jor, so she don wan go up hotel xin, so she hav dinner wif us lo :]
after the dinner zhu zaii n i bring her bak to ah lun's room lo, den we 2 go walk walk lo :]
we walk alot of places at last we went outside n chat. outside was damn cold but dono y i won really feel cold when i'm wif zhu zaii. we chat n laugh n i 1st time c a 'diffren' kinda boy, he dance infront of me n jump n talk alot in 1 breath, wa...really geng ar he. we sit outside there from 9:30pm to abt 11pm n when 10:02pm he gao bai wif me, he asked 'qiu, ni ke yi zuo wo nv peng you ma?' i said 'na wo wen ni, ni ke yi zuo wo nan peng you ma?' den he gently kiss me at my lips n said 'wo yuan yi, na ni ne? ni yuan yi zuo wo nv peng you ma?' den i also gently kiss him at his lips n said 'wo yuan yi' den i suddenly said 'ok, now c wat time, 10:02pm..ok, zai 10:02pm wo zhen shi zuo ni nv peng you, 9th nov 10:02pm wo men zhen shi zai yi qi le' den we smile to each other n start to chat abt other things. he said alot alot of his UNHAPPY things n he jump around n i looked at him n i was really cold n i nvr tell him, bec i know tat when i person was unhappy is good to be in a cold places. den abt 11pm tat time i asked him 'r you cold? i'm vry cold ardy' den he said 'i'm also vry cold, ok, let go in' we two like soh po n soh lou quickly walk inside n i was really cold until i was shivering ardy n i told him n he tried to make me feel warm by kept holding my hand, put hot air in my hand n giv me his scarf. i know tat he was also vry cold n i kept said tat i don wan, you take la. but end up he still giv me n i kept hold at my hand, we two quickly walk to my hotel room. when i walk into my room no 1 in there, juz we two. n tat time i'm still abit cold so zhu zaii asked me to sit down n he asked me to touch his neck bec his neck was really warm, but i know tat he was really cold ardy if i still take his warmness he sure beh tahan de, so i try to take of my hand but he don let my hands go, so i juz follow wat he said lo. after few min den i felt not tat cold ardy, so we play in the room for awhile, juz we two only but i tot tat if a girl n a boy in a room together they will be doing things tat they won do outside. but zhu zaii n i nvr wo, we two juz playing like kids, den suddenly sieng came in to our room n saw us playing xD
but tat time she was in a bad mood so we two tried to make her happy lo. den qian came in too, then we juz chat around lo. abt 11:30pm zhu zaii needs to go off ardy, his fren want to go jor, but dono when my chest starts to feel cold n like pain like too cold ardy, but i juz tahan n company zhu zaii to his fren there, so i juz tahan until he went bak lo, he looked like bu she de, he kept said he wan to overnite wif me, i also wanted him to company me but i know tat he was really tired ardy + he got clas on the next day so i don let n asked him to go bak, after he went bak i hold sieng's arm n said 'sieng, my chest vry pain, i vry cold, pui me to buy sumthing hot' den sieng juz quickly pui me to buy a hot milo n kept asked me 'y you don tell him? r you still ok?' den i said'i don wan tell him bec i know tat he will worry n don wan go bak de, so i don wan tell him' but in the room tat time sieng go n tell him ardy, n i juz kept said 'i'm ok don worry.' but slowly ok jor...
dono wat to say ardy.....SKIPPP..

-11th nov-
zhu zaii fetch me home ma, i buy alot things from genting abt 6 stuff lo. n i buy 1 POLO watch for him, n i went to jusco to make the blade den after tat i was thinking tat i should giv him a suprize, so i asked him 'whr is yr car? giv me yr car keys' den he point at his car den i said 'ok now you stand here, don see ar, of not i don choi you de ar' i quickly walk to his car n put all those present at his sit, tis is my 1st time giving a present to a guy like tis, after tat i start his car n i sit in his car den miss call him den he slowly walk to his car n c all those present n he kept laughing n said 'thank you lao po' den i juz smile at him n said 'no ned thanks la' den he gently kiss me at my lips n we touch nose to nose :]
after tat he da bao me dinner n fetch me home lo :]

zhu zaii, really thank you all the stuff you did for me, i'm really touch, sumtimes i don tell out or show out if i'm been touch bec i dono how to tell you i'm touch xD
but really thank you :]
B.B.W.Y.Z.H.A.N.D.W.M.

my off day.

walau, last few days i was working from morning until late nite, so not really hav time to bloggie, but today was my off day, so i just wanted to blog 1 post :]

-MY WORK-
i work here for 128hrs ardy, i feel really happy for my work coz juz face all those kids wif cutie face. n the workers there was really friendly too, n when we were working we kept laughing, bcoz sure got sum1 make us laugh. most of the time is ah gan, he is a indian but he can talk chinese n cantonese, bcoz he is a mix, his father is a indian + mother is a chinese = child is a mix xD
i really get fun in tat work, although i work there until late nite vry tired, but i really enjoy. :]
Hahax! havnot said yet were i work. i work at 1u[new wing], a shop name GET CRAFTY, is teaching kids how to make art n craft. When got go 1u rmb cum find me ar! alot ppl visit me b4, like, dai lou de "gang", alvin de "gang", zhu zaii's biao mei [shi ming] n most often cum n find me de ZHU ZAII! xD

-ZHU ZAII-
hahax! if you ask me to think abt him i can juz only laugh, dono y?! now our relationship really complicated, also dono we r couple jor leh, or havnot de. Alot ppl also ask, but i juz answer them 'dono, tat y my fb put complicated lo.' but not for zhu zaii, he straight a way said 'yes, she is my lou po.' coz i feel tat he havnot really ask yet but we were like couple ardy so..@.@ blur jor.
But nvm la, for now he treat me vry goodie ardy xD he cook porridge for me leh, n put in the thermos giv me aft my work means for my DINNER! xD it was really touch dou, n i ate all!! wkaka! really nice + i was really hungry. 1st time i eat dou so nice n sweet de porridge. but i think so tis kinda porridge outside cannot find ardy, only he can make dou. but for now i ate b4 he cook the noodle [Maggi] + the sweet porridge, the porridge really put lot of 'liao' xD
Although we were sweet now, but we feel dou we lack of 1 kinda feel leh. until now i also dono wat feel. maybe time will show me wats the feel i lack of bah. n got 1 time i really felt tat i treat him vry bad, maybe bcoz ham treat me like tis b4 makes me don believe boys ardy, i really felt sorry n kept blaming myself how i treat you. it was really pain when getting hurt, tat y chance i hardly giv you. But now i'm trying to believe you n slowly giv you chance vry often ardy wa. kekex^^

-HAM-
if now you ask me to look bak, dono y 1st i think abt how he hurt me badly. i really dono y. yea, i know tat we were sweet b4, but if now you ask me to look bak, i will feel hurt n pain in there deeply. i want to let go tat pain, so i just go on n don look bak ardy.abt his skype p.m. b4 the present 1 he wrote 'zhi dao ni xin li you wo, yi qie yi jing bu zhong yao le' n for now he wrote 'cheng jin you yi zhen zhi de ai qingwo mei you zhen xi, zhi dao xiao shi le wo cai ao hui, ru guo gei wo yi chi yi hui,wo bu hui rang ta liu zou,ru guo yao zai zhe ge ai qing fang shang yi ge qi xian, wo xi wang shi yi wan nian, ru guo yao fang shang yi ju hua, wo hui shuo wo ai ni' i see jor dono y don feel like laughing ardy, like vry serious ardy. i know tat he knows tat he was wrong but chance i hav given ardy i given many many times ardy, but he juz like watching a movie, play finish den like dono ardy juz watch its go only. i sick of tired tat he treat me like tis, ardy 1 year he treat me like tis. but i still don leave his heart until now. I'm tired only me kept struggle in there. Dono y only zhu zaii is the 1 can pull me out from there. n he was really diffren from ham. Totally diffren. Ham really hurt me vry badly b4, is juz like he take a sword n poke through my heart, it was really damn pain + he pull it out hardly made it more pain, bleeding n swollen ardy. Chance is juz like i'm giving he the medicine but he just push it away n sumtimes even touch my swollen part, makes me feel hurt n pain. But now i'm recovering bcoz maybe i'm tired to giv him again, so i gave him the medicine n he willing to help me. i tired to giv two person b4, but tat two person made me kept bak my medicine, 4got y ardy. Now zhu zaii help me until almost recover ardy. really thank to him alot lot. he did all those is like he should de, but is not, is he willing to do, i really felt touch abt tat, n i really fell tat being love tat 'xing fu' de feelings again.

-FAMILY-
Nowadays i'm working so less time wif family n zhu zaii, but i still try my best to pull out time to company him n no matter i work until how late how tired, i also will sacrifice my sleeping time or my resting time to company him, dono y xD n i work bcoz i felt tat wat i want den just take money from my parents, like tis makes me felt shame tat y i work + 50% of my selary i'm not gonna touch it bcoz is for my family de. tat another 50% is only for me, tat y i work so hard ma xD

Okeys, dono wat to type or say sum more le leh, think dou or feel like saying only say la. :]

tuesday again @@

2day zhu zaii fetch me bak take de xD
today we went to our 'old place' :]
n we were vry SWEET ^3^

Okeys, the story was like tis, i work at 11am my dad fetch me like usual lo, den i finish early means 6pm, so i was thinking tat i can take tis chance to see zhu zaii, so i ask me c whether he can or want to fetch me mou lo. den he accepct jor, so he fetch me bak home lo. abt 5:30pm i saw him pass by my working place, n he was early so he juz waited me outside the shop lo. After i cum out, i saw him siting there,his back was facing me n he was talking in phone so wanted to giv him a kiss at his cheek after the phone, but once he off his phone he c dou me jor, so i juz act tak tahu n said tat i wan go toilet lo, bec tat time i ardy wan to toilet ardy. When i cum out, i saw him still back facing me, so i try again to kiss him at his cheek. hahax! success jor xD! den we juz walk until to his car lo, den in car tat time he ask me wan go our OLD place mou, den i was thinking tat still got time ma go awhile lo. den we reached there, we saw a couple in sweet n it was leng luii n leng zaii o. After tat we cum down from the car den juz walk around in sweet sweet lo :]
While walking we also kept playing like soh po n soh lou xD n we kept zhat each other. It was really fun, den abt 7:30pm we when bak to his car bcoz i'm having dinner at home so i ned to go bak to hav my dinner. But b4 he drove his car, sieng's bf called n asked abt the genting things. Then tat zhu zaii, go n make those sounds like we r 'MAKING',so his bf ask 'you all 'MAKE' finish jor mei? den i said, 'weih, low zhi hao! diam diam!' den he continue wo, so i juz kept hit him n laugh lo, coz his sound really make ppl 'wu hui' xD den her bf beh tahan kap phone ardy + i don really feel like settle those things so also ned thank piggy de :]
but too sad, sieng called after that den tat zhu zaii ar, kacau again n tou ting wat sieng n i said, he was really funny xD
den sieng asked me to settle the problem lo, so i juz only can 'sallow' the problem by myself lo. i was really pressure ardy, work + my hse work + my mummy work + zhu zaii competition + tis GENTING problem + sieng n her bf problem. i was really pressure, but zhu zaii c dou jor, n kept tam me happy lo, but dono y he did it jor wo xD in car from bad mood > HAPPY MOOD :]
after tat he only started his car to drive me bak home. On the way bak he also kept 'tam-ing' me. xD When almost reach my hse, i asked him to stop 1 side, bcoz i feel tat i'm really tired to 'sallow' problems by myself, so i juz wanted a bigg nice n warm huggie. so i juz hug him in the car n my head was in his chest n i can feel tat his heart beat was really fast, after tat long huggie, i look at his n giv him a kiss at his lips, then [kekex^^,paiseh..] but lucky his ham sap hand nvr cum out la, if not i sure stop de xD
after tat only he continue drive me home, dono y when i go back i feel tat all my pressure gone ardy, like given to him ardy. n 1st time i feel dou 'an quan gan' from a guy. Last time in every huggie i don really feel, tis time i really feel dou from his hug, feel vry warm, been protect,get to trust him n most importantly is in tat hug i feel dou tat no matter wat happen got you LOW ZHI HAO i will be fine :]
Funny 1st time @.@

tues

today clifford fetch me to work at 9:30am fetch there abt 9:50am den i slowly walk up to the shop. Reach ardy juz put my bag in the drawer n put my 2 phone n my left n right pocket. after that juz start work lo. today i cut all those things until my skin the got 1 part red like all those blood clot in there abit pain + today i do all those things really test yr skills man really hard kept let the mrs. lee said no leng no leng but i juz kept trying to do my best. the whole day i only love my GLUE-ING part, coz i really did it nice xD den while i cutting the ice-cream stick tat mrs lee asked me to, she suddenly king gai wif me so i juz chat lo. She asked 'you pak toh ardy anot? say honesty' den i was like 'er..er..yea, but like not really' den she said 'wa, leng zaii mou? got tell yr parents?' den i said 'leng zaii?? still ok la, i will tell my parents soon.' den she said 'good anot? how he looks like? know how to drive? got wear spec?' den i said 'he treated me better den my ex, he nvr wear spec, next time i show you how he looks like la' den she said 'i don like guys wears spec, bec young tat time i think tat when KISS tat time vry ma fan + den kena 'qiang jie' if he don hav his spec, how he protect me?' den i juz kept laughing bec i nvr think abt tis b4. Den i told her abt my ex n she said 'lucky you nvr let him 'tap'[means like eat jor]' den i juz said 'haiz, last time not matured enough' den she said 'if my daughter tell me tat if she got bf how ar?' den i said 'aiyo, this kinda things will de, but don b too early.' den she said 'now you also wat *laugh* i form4 only pak toh leh' den i said 'wa, you also early wa' den when customer comes we stop den juz do bak our job(: den my mum fetch me home abt 6:15pm reach abt 6:30pm den juz sit infornt of the laptop type my BLOGGIE n FACEBOOOOKING! den i saw jia wen's profile in fb, den only i know she pak toh ardy, i was really happy n i hope she can find a guy tat really likes n loves her (:
[dono today he got sneeze mou?]

MONDAY!

work until 6:15pm den go walk wif zhu zaii 1u actually wanted to go c movie but dono wat show to c so nvr go c jor juz walk n eat dinner together.. den we were quite sweet walking around. when we were having dinner we were like kept taking each other phone n press. den after our dinner a gul wif short hair kept looking at piggie n tat piggie kept said tat she looked at him n said he likes her hairstyle. den i was abit chi cu den i juz say den her face leng mou? den he said not leng wo, dono him o. den we wanted the bill so i wanted to call the short gul again den end up he call another 1. den he was like 'YES!' den a lady saw, den he said ' tat lady looked at me leh' den i was really chi cu wanted to take my bag n go off, but i did not do so, i juz act tat i'm joking. but he dono, nvm la, chi cu sure got de is only c how much cu you eat only@.@

SUNDAY(:

tat showing 'PEACE V' is me(:
[everyone gotta wear skirt@.@, n tat skirt is my teacher Linnet lend me]

new pic [mayb i will not put at fb]

Qiu 4 [looks abit blur coz juz woke up]
Qiu 3
Qiu 2
Qiu 1
[1st day of work take 1]

pain..

Haiz, juz now awhile i was sleeping i feel really unconformable bcoz my right arm really pain, my 2 hand thumb nail there abit blue black so if i use my nails it hurts, my shoulder is like very tiring, my legs r kinda tired, my head don really feel well, suddenly hav flu in the morning n my stomach don really feel well too, mayb bcoz my meals i eat in a wrong time + i kept tahan the hungriness, so after i eat the chicken rice 10:30pm i feel like wan to vomit n the food like stuck up there@.@

Tired, so juz woke up at 12am on9 for awhile den ltr go 1u wif my dad to 'pak toh' xD actually is going to c show together, is like sat n sun is my family day(: but if my family nvr plan anythings den only i go out wif frens:]

i feel sumthings really different, tat i tot tat all guys when they r busy or wif frens go outig they were 4got abt their gf or their love 1, but zhu zaii won de wo, few times ardy, no matter whr is he or wat he is doing he also will think dou me den sms me de leh, so when he was wif his frens i don sms him de, unless he sms me, coz i scare i kacau dou him or makes him feel i very ma fan or makes him feel ned to also care abt me while he was bz. zhu zaii was like totally different than the others :]

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